i think i need to start going back to therapy or something. i'm so fed up with things. and not to mention my mind is just not thinking right. i just wanna fucking be okay. i wanna get out of this life. yeah life has ups and downs and shit changes but can i just have things the way i want for a little while. or something good for a change. nothing ( Read more... )

so its thanksgiving. i can't wait to eat. i'm so hungry. haha ( Read more... )

soooo this weekend was pretty boring for the most part. went to a small party on st. patty's day with mike. it was fun. the snow killed most of my weekend ( Read more... )

today was the first day back at school since spring break. only like 60 days or something like that until the last day of classes. so close so close. and i have off in april for almost 2 weeks which is awesome. i think we get report cards tomorrow or something ( Read more... )

so i'm in vermont. i've been here since sunday and its fuckin freezing. its been in the negatives all week during the day and at night. tomorrow during the day its going to be -30 without wind chill. its been way too cold to even ski. so me and mom are leaving tomorrow. i got some cool stuff from this store darkside. especially this hat that i ( Read more... )

welllllll i suppose i could update. i'm just avoiding studying and finishing my sketchbook for tomorrow. so mcuh shit to do tomorrow its ridiculous. in school i have to hand in my sketchbook, take a spanish cumulative, take a precalc test, a health test, and gives a short presentation in english. thats basically all my classes. after school i gotta ( Read more... )

i wish i could see my future at times.  i wanna know if all of this is worth it. i

i think it hurts me more than anything...

i wanna go back to the summer

at least its only 3 months away....

okay so its valentines day

i can understand why alot of people hate the holiday because i used to hate it more than anything. Except for when i was still in 3rd grade and everyone gave everyone a card with candy and of course you had that secret valentine you picked out of a hat.  Back then those were probably the most fun times of valentines day.  ( Read more... )

so today for me, its been great. i have a day off from school. Thank you, God for this weather just let people be safe traveling. my mom made me heart shaped pink chocolate chip pancakes for breakfast. and although i do not get to see mike today, i will get to celebrate with him over the weekend.

every time i wish on a star i wish the best for you.

so yeah i did get the job at pacsun. i couldnt work for like two weeks though since i had training for one week and then all last week i was sick out of my mind. i had a fever of 103 almost 104 and it just kept going up and down for the whole week and instead of going up at night it went down to normal. it sucked. and i could barely move because i ( Read more... )