it's a funny thing love is. it can be felt but not seen, and it can be said but not understood. how do tell someone that you really love them? better yet, how do you convince someone who doesn't believe that you love them that you truely do love them? i don't have the foggiest idea, if you do i'd sure like to know. all i want to do is make her ( Read more... )

well well well, it's been a while kids hasn't it? i felt it was time for an update. so what have i been up to? let's see, nothin really, schoo, band practice, college apps. thats about it. ummm this weekend was decent. friday night i dont think i did anything. i really cant remember, haha i dont know if thats a bad thing or not. anyways, so last ( Read more... )

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ABOUT YOUYour full name:Matthew James JacarusoAge:18Height:5'11"Natural hair colour:brownEye colour:brownNumber of siblings:1Glasses/contacts?:glasses-getting conctactsPiercings:nopeTattoos:nopeBraces?:not anymoreFAVOURITEColour:blue i guessBand:Thrice, used to be ( Read more... )

this will be my last live journal entry EVER, i never update it and when i do all i do is bitch about girls, and by girls i mean rachael ,i coudl take about her for days and i always do, and i know noone gives a shit about my thing with her so this live journal has been and is a complete waste for me and all of you, so this is me fading and riding ( Read more... )

wow first update in.....like months. so whats been going on with matt jacaruso you ask? absolutely fuckin nothing, played a show at the homecomming cook out, and we fuckin rocked, thats been about my highlight of the past 3 months. hmmm what else, nothign really, still single, what else is new, now i know most of you are thinking it's rachael again ( Read more... )

wow, it's funny how you can say you can't have feelings for me because we're too good of friends and that you arent over someone from before, YET no more than 6 lines later you're telling another person whom you've know way longer than me that you two would be great together but you couldnt say it because you're scared. pff thats fucked up ( Read more... )

fuck this. fuck everything. let me tell all you hopefuls out there, never try. never try for anything you want, because no matter how bad you want it theres alwats somethin there to kick you in the balls. wheter it be you say the wring thing, or someone takes something the wrong way and cals you an asshle, it never matters because you'll always get ( Read more... )

why does it bother me so much? why does it bother me that she does those things? when i shouldn't, im not in any place to care one fuckin bit, yet i do, i care so much that it makes me angry to hear about it when she tells me, it makes me frustrated to hear it, but most of all it hurts me to hear it. why? i dont know, maybe im too attacted when i ( Read more... )

today was lame the only thing worth mentioning is that i go tto go to Rachael's today!!!!! it was REALLLLLLLY great to see her finally, and not for more than 2 minutes, it was way better than just lookin at a screen picturing what she was saying. i was over there for a good while, about 3 hours, we watched a mive, i rented Underworld(one of the ( Read more... )

Am I miserable because i've changed? or have I cahnged because I'm miserable? there inlies the question I went to a part tonight and proceeded to have NO fun. I felt so out of place. everyone was drinking and was getting wasted or doin thier thing and i just sat there like a basatrd. whats my problem? seriously, where am i going wrong. even the ( Read more... )