i feel like the biggest failure right now. i fucked up and i can't take it back. i made the stupidest decision of my life when i dropped out of public high school, and now i regret it more than anything.

yeah, this thing gets lost..and then i miraculously(sp?) find it again. yippee. update on life: summer school sucks, yes i'm going back to public school next year for my senior year. go me. i have this week + monday left. matt and i took about a month break..and we're back together again. love him, always. bad episode with drinking alcohol while ( Read more... )

i believe i've lost him. we're over. i'm not sure what to do. it's his fault.

i seriously don't always understand him. he's so confusing. today was the worst. i knew it was going to be over because i was going to end it. i'm really sick of all the fighting, over the stupidest things. and again, we're tryingto work things out again. fuck it.

he makes me SO fucking mad. why can't he just grow up and act his age? i know friends are important but he has one shoved so far up his fucking ass he can't breath. and all it's doing is drawing me further and further away.

i hate being alone. in the stormy weather. empty bed.

worked today. was pretty boring, my manager's last day. he's going back to his store in pittsburg:( sucks. had a pretty entertaining weekend. my friend ashley and matt's friend kyle(the one's that got me and matt together) got together this weekend after hating eachother for over a year. very crazy. they're kinda together now. but i swear if he ( Read more... )

new journal. maybe i'll actually use this one some? we'll see. right now i'm just laying around, getting ready to highlight my hair. i'm ready for tonight. me, matt, ash, & kyle are hanging out getting sloshed. fun right? jealousy:) at the moment i don't really have much to write about. just setting this up right now. more later.