and I get a little happier with life ( Read more... )

meh.. that is all!

At around 11.30 this morning my Nanna finally let go. As my sister put it, she was in control until the end. She was restless around 5 this morning and then settled down. I'm not quite sure how much grieving will happen now as I've been preparing for this for about 6 months now. No doubt when it sinks in properly I'll have a little break down.

I don't normally do this sort of thing, so I thought I'd try something new! What do you think, how well does it know me?

Why can't I stop thinking about you?
Why am I so lost without you?
Why can't I stop crying over you?
Why does it hurt so much, without you?
Why can't I be happy for you?
Why do I want to die without you?
...
Because I love you!

I've lost her... Jude... She's gone :'( I just wanna lie in bed all day crying but I know that it won't help. I've gotta go out later anyway. I should really book that taxi. I've gotta go to the union and finish some coursework but I really don't feel like it. I don't want to have lost Jude but I guess that I would end up hurting her if we ( Read more... )

I hate myself, I hate what I have become, I hate hurting Jude ( Read more... )

I've just spent the past few hours changing the look of my journal page. I guess I should get some sleep now. What do people think?!

I though that while I was here replying to someone I should write something. I don't really know what to say though! The house is a mess, I'm meant to be hovering some time but people have messed the house up so much that I can't get to the places that need hovering! Argh. Life's not bad, gf's great (seeing her tonight :D). My course is going ( Read more... )

On the Job front, things are looking promising. My Boss has told me that there should be quite a bit of work I can be doing. I'm still waiting for my Personal Tutor to respond to me, grr ( Read more... )