Everything, lost. Hopes, goals, dreams, meaning, direction, will, purpose... Lost, consumed, gone forever. My only dream ever was to be able to live normal.. nothing fancy (even tho id talk of what id do if i hit the big 6 it was never a dream) just to be accepted at least as much as everyone else in this world... and yet, it will never be, ( Read more... )

I'm still amazed at my capacity for inflicting meaningless self torment. I dont have much time for my friends anymore what with my paper route and turning my sleep schedule upside down for future college classes, and somehow i have time to regret. Regret my past, regret my present, regret my future..... but most of all, i find myself inflicting ( Read more... )

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Momma always told my breathing is like drugs, its addictive ( Read more... )

Greetings pitiful earth creatures, i assure you my reapearance is not as a pod-human of this pitiful earth creature. long time no post, or even check in, please dont ground me, but i finally got the heck off my butt so here i am. obviously your all stuck with me again, but im sure you all figured that one out already ( Read more... )

nothing like the holidays to make my loathe living again... somebody, if you insist on getting me a present, get me a hit on my life, before holiday shopping is over, that way i get outta some of it ( god the shopping crowds are as close to the zerg as ive seen in real life )

well, i made the mistake of thinking things were on the up and up....so once again i get skullfucked by god......i hate this universe... my dad got fired this thursday, so now, i get to baby sit him well hes depressed, and meanwhile hes taking all his anger at losing his job out on me, as tho its my fault hes a fucktard that cant follow orders and ( Read more... )

feeling alot better seeing how i can kinda more or less comunicate with everyone again, litte cranky cuz my dads not letting me get my evercrack fix, ive been lvl 56 for almost a month now......yeah parental figures, wish i knew a way to cut his break lines...that wouldnt involve me losing the one car the family has that i like and runs well atm ( Read more... )

ok, i finally joined you all in live journal, now all you bastards had better not run away from me again, bad enough im left all alone in vancouver, boy this town sucks now. any who, im trying to get back in touch after my vanishing act, i was in a bit of a self destruct modfe there for a bit, think the hamster pushed the shiny red button or ( Read more... )