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7 weeks
I don't even know what to write anymore. my life is a mess, there's no way that me writing in a little online journal will help me sort my shit out.
I don't even know where to start. im in a pessimistic mood right now.
is it bad that I enjoy making the customers mad? I'm soooooo not cut out for retail... -
karma police
i guess i'm just trying to say it hurts that you can remember all these crazy "events" but you dont have a few minutes to give me a call or to remember something for less than a week.
i'm deeply sad. i thought this time would be different, but it obviously isn't :(
i just want to know what i did in my life to deserve this? -
we sit and we sigh as nothing gets done
I need to get out of this toxic disgusting city. I can't take the pure disrespect that people have for no reason. I realize that if you live in any one place for too long it becomes toxic to you, but I really can't get past the utter hatred and disrespect that Frank has for Joe for no fucking reason. Joe is like a brother to me so it really hurts ( Read more... ) -
I been bummin' around this old town for way too long
my sister is in town for 2 weeks :] me and sarah are taking her out to dinner tomorrow. we have reservations at nakama for 9:00 tomorrow night. they both love sushi so we decided to go there. I'm sure I'll find some kind of vegetarian dish on the menu haha ( Read more... ) -
survival sickness
so basically my anxiety has been through the roof lately. its getting so out of control. I had a panic attack in my sleep last night for the first time ever. it was soooo horrible. its not like anything in particular set it off. I need to stop worrying so much about everyone else especially since they don't worry about me. it really literally ( Read more... ) -
the crack inside your fucking heart is me
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I push my hands through the thorns just to crush the final rose
sooooo haven't updated since november. wow. so basically im still anxious all the time. I feel like im doing the right thing in my life but in the wrong region. I've come pretty far with my body piercing apprenticeship. I love christie. she explains everything to me so that I understand and helps me soooo much. she let me perform my first real body ( Read more... ) -
reach out and take my heart away
why am i such a piece of shit? yesterday was thanksgiving and instead of being grateful for the world around me and the little things, all i could think about were the things that i didn't have that i wanted ( Read more... ) -
i don't know
i really don't know anymore ( Read more... ) -
remnants of a past here, pass like light through dust as memories are bleeding like pain
I'm such a bad person. Thats what I've been thinking a lot about lately. How could I have turned my back on someone who meant (and still means) soo incredibly much to me? I still think about you, every single day, just so you know. I doubt you'll read this. And, if you do, you probably won't know it's about you ( Read more... )