I'm going to Finals for an amazing scholarship at an amazing school. Thats right I made it. This is the last round which will determine if i get a full ride. pray for that junk, not just that i get it, but that whoever does get it deserves it bc thats a lot of money.

now i just have to get through high school.

i'm getting my hair cut tomorrow. Should i got short or just get a trim? lemme know. k-bye

soo downtime has been negative. i owe downtime. projects and papers and work aka my life. Please guys dont get too busy because over-all you feel like crap. i remember being relaxed and free. Personal and spiritual well-being get pretty low. thank you America and your fast-paced lifestyle. Maybe now i can get back to where i need to be and ( Read more... )

how difficult to think

silent & resolute but not resolute in silence

i hope my fakeness wasn't lost on you

this is hard but it has to be done for my safety, for my sanity, for me to come close to enjoying everyone and everything in this town. i have to walk away

Riding the bumpy air below my econo-sized parachute with knife in hand. watch me cut loose.
from you, from this, from that
i'll drop head-first with the cool air pushing my hair back. Watch me soar.
to what i need most
blue sky swallow me up

Things have gotten better mostly because God knew what I needed and gave it to me. He's pretty crazy, and i'm very thankful right now. This is a good beginning, a good change like i've been craving for. I feel like staying vague, but I really am more than willing (actually excited) about telling any of you sometime. just ask ( Read more... )

NUMBER ONE GUN COMES TOMORROW TO NBT AT 6PM!!
drop one if you have $10 and wanna go!
they are effing amazing!

And I just want to get mugged at knifepoint ( Read more... )

all in all im unhappy. things are going well. I dont get it, but i almost want to fall completely in it. i want to go to college where i have more of a chance of being valued and appreciated because i dont have that in this place where my personality is bitter tasting to everyone. I might miss you later, but now all i want is to leave.