what is so unlovable about me anyway?

i don't know what is wrong with me. i have nothing to care about anymore. i don't want to be depressed but lately i can't hold it back. in my eyes, it is trendy of the 00's to be depressed. i don't want to be like that, i want to be happy i just can't figure out how.

i started doing drugs again. i just felt so much better about myself while using. and the state i am in now, i don't really care about fucking up my body. in 40 years i will begin falling apart anyways.

Bitches love me cause they know that I can rock!
Bitches love me cause they know that I can rhyme!
Bitches love me cause they know that I can fuck!
Bitches love me cause they know that I'm on time!

THROUGHOUT THE PROJECTS!

haven't written in a while.
not much is new. except i've started hanging out with corban.
i don't like that girl anymore.
end.

i met this chick danielle at the spectrum. shes hot. and cool. and she likes me. and i like her.

i'm sixteen!!!  come love me!

every living creature at misison viejo high school is a fucking retard. even the retards.

nobody reads my journal. so why bother.

its been almost two months being sober. but i gave in. my dad has soo much alcohol and i had some.

your ars0nist: ya know what. your cooler than any of my friends.
UTEROtourettes: how?
your ars0nist: you are yourself and you dont care what people think
your ars0nist: and you are into cool things
UTEROtourettes: well ur my rolemodel since ive known u since i was born

i think that is really cool of him. hes a good kid.