I have not cried. My pain is heartbreaking (is my heart broken? was it already?), but it will not lead to tears. For they are already sewn into each heavy, yet silent breath ( Read more... )

While everything waits "up in the air".. I wonder, is my life in transition phase? What if Europe doesn't work out? I feel I should be searching for a new job. I honestly love my job, but a. I am not passionate about it and b. I am not making 50k. I know that I need to be one of the two, and either or would not be entirely too difficult. Also I don ( Read more... )

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One full week. And what a week it has been. I went out of town yesterday, let me tell you, 12 hours in a car with four people eating cheetos and dq blizzards and snacky snacks, well, fun times. I accidentally got some cayenne pepper on/in? my nose... and turned bright red and burning for a good 20 minutes. Ows! I am premixing from now on, learned ( Read more... )

I'm onto day five, feeling good. My dreams are either a. my closest friends and family getting brutally murdered or b. me eating food, and feeling really guilty for quitting. I don't know which is worse. jk, it's probably a ( Read more... )

I'm back on the cleanse. This time will last longer, I'm sure. I preplanned two weeks in advance for the date I would start, and over the weekend ate most of the things I knew I'd crave (sushi, ice cream, hummus, etc ( Read more... )

I feel great. I have more energy to work outside of the office, sew, get ready for the craft fair and all that. People are saying I look more life-like again. I got fresh organic high pulp oj and have been mixing it with purified water. I ate granola three times, serving size about 2/3 cup each time and with a small amount of low-fat soy milk. It ( Read more... )

This morning was real easy. Then I went out of town. Not so easy ( Read more... )

...so glad it is over. I don't want to do this for ten days! I feel cleansed and hungry ( Read more... )

Maybe you shouldn’t read my entries if you don’t want to be grossed out. Just if you’re interested. I’m not writing about spring break and making out and the new shins album. Those entries are “friends only” haha... jay kay circa 2001 ( Read more... )