so whilst cleaning out some old boxes and things and packing i find an old journal, an actual journal i only started because my computer died for a week and other than being 16 years old and having 10 hour long phone calls with nakita i had nothing better to do. i think that happened to be the best most exciting and ridiculous week of my adolescent ( Read more... )

new start!

i always try and make the new year better than the last, of course, and improve on the things i didnt like in the previous year. whether it be things i did or the relationships i had. so this year im going to have a new years resolution for the first time...to put the past behind me come\pletely and live fully in the present. im going to ( Read more... )

ive been so happy lately and lucky to have people in my life who are worth my time for once. people who are worth the smiles, laughs, even the tears and everything...but ive realized that even with as much as ive changed and been through over the last three years and as much as ive done everything i can to keep the people i care about in my life no ( Read more... )

i have an issue...ive been christmas shopping and bought almost nothing, for anyone else that is haha. im such a mess. ive got  few things though! and my life would be made if someone bought me beatles monopoly for christmas!!!! or the sick salt and pepper shakers i saw at newbury! haha or the cookie cutter. im a sucker for crappy beatles ( Read more... )

so when this semester is over its time for a new job search...i cant possibly work anymore and im still broke.  i need to atleast get paid more if im gonna be working my life away. and speaking of this semester it can not be over soon enough.  i have so much stuff to do by next week alone im freaking out, yet again hah.  but for the most part, this ( Read more... )

People still use these! It amazes me. I went back and read some entries of this oldold journal, and it was hilarious. I guess one good thing about these things is a constant reminder of how lame you were and how much you have changed haha. For the better, I hope. Maybe Ill start using this thing again....Hmm.

how is it that the people that once made me smile only break my heart and the things that i once knew arent even recognizable to me anymore?

i have the weirdest feeling tonight...like something bad is going to happen. i dont know, i dont like it at all with whats going on right now. its scaring me...maybe its just me. i overthink everything and it sucks. i think the combination of things upsetting me is just not good right now. i need to make up my mind. i need to stop thinking myself ( Read more... )

its really shitty how you can feel something for so long and still never figure out how to deal with it/handle it. i hate it.  almost a year and a half later and something so simple can trigger the worst feeling ive ever had. does it ever go away ( Read more... )

so yeah.....

=D

that pretty much explains it all.
i enjoy being happy.
therefore i am enjoying life at this time.
and thats about it.

march = trip to canada.
canada..enough said.

april=brand new&as tall as lions&cute is what we aim for&circa survive.

im also looking forward to the possibilities of tonight/tomorrow night.