I could tell from the minute I woke up 
It was going to be a lonely lonely
lonely lonely day.
Rise and shine rub the sleep out of my eyes
And try to tell myself I can't
go back to bed
It's gonna be a lonely lonely lonely lonely day.
Even though the sun is shining down on me and I should feel about as happy as can be
I just got here and I already want to ( Read more... )

i just want to go back in time.  back to seven months ago when things were good and when i'd take a bullet for you without thinking twice. back when we'd have sex twice a day at least and we wouldn't give a fuck what anyone thought.  when there was no fighting and no need for jealousy.  back when i was convinced we were spending the rest of our ( Read more... )

i don't know what to say. or what to write. i just feel like i should be unstoppable right now.  with everything going the right way. my life is finally in order and i can finally breathe and do what i want without someone throwing a shit fit... well, mostly. but there's just something missing.  or something wrong.  i don't know what it is yet, but ( Read more... )

So I can't go and see Dane Cook tonight because my girlfriend doesn't want me to go without her (ok, well she says I can go, but I KNOW she'll flip out if I do and it will breed mass drama) and she doesn't want to go because she doesn't like ONE person who's going.
Dude
What
  the
   fuck
    man!

I feel like my heart has stopped beating and that a part of me has died.

Except this time, my other half isn't there to mend it and make it all better.

I just want to fall into oblivion.

I don't know when I became a spectator in my own life, but somewhere along the line I did.

Recently, there's been times where I don't feel like I'm actually having conversations with people or hanging out with them myself, like I'm sitting there thinking i wonder what meggie will say/do next??  And not in the way that my life is so fabulous that it' ( Read more... )

Ahhh, Valentines Day.
A day for lovers.  
A day I never truly enjoyed.
This year, however, it was different. There was Hollywood and Hustler... chocolate titties and karma sutra cooling sensation.  Amazing food and good music, dirty driving escapades and flashing innocent bystanders.  Good Valentines Day sex and lots of cuddling.  And of course the ( Read more... )

I hate myself for so many different reasons right now.
There's only one person I could talk to about all the reasons why, but I think she might be getting sick of hearing me bitch.  Nikki, I knoW you're not reading this, but tonight at school, you just need to grab me, shake me and say_
Meggie... snap the fuck out of it.  STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT! ( Read more... )

So I'm getting my lip pierced tonight.
Again.
And this time mommy won't make me take it out, because I refuse to let her.  I really don't have the amount of money I should have to make this transaction ok, but who the fuck cares.  Julie's apparently getting her tongue pierced. That should be fun.
So Julie and I had a big falling out.  Big big one.  ( Read more... )

mmmmm
inner peace is nice. very very nice.
so this is a recap of my past.. i don't know how many days..

On thursday night, after much persuading and promises of sexy favors, I convinced julie to join me at meg's apartment for the night.  The drive up there went damn fast and before I knew it, the glorious exit of Wilshire approached  So we got there ( Read more... )