I talked to pete the other night.  I really thought we were going to break up, things just werent looking good for us.  After he brought up the point of it maybe not being worth it and a really really long silence he told me that he couldnt see himself without me.  So were supposed to be good now, but i dont know if i am.  I mean when im around him ( Read more... )

damn... its been awhile ( Read more... )

I dont get myself.  I have an amazing relationship with an amazing boy.  He treats me well, he always trys his best to see me, he talks to me when im upset, he hangs out with my friends and doesn't pressure me to do anything.  But for some reason I've been letting my imagination get the best of me.  I dont know why but I had a dream last night ( Read more... )

jeffs good.  he never went to the doctor but hes doing fine now...guess he really didnt need to go.

New Years was fun - went to adams with a few people, nothing big.  Jackie had everyone over but me and keri.  I wasnt even invited.  All the people that i thought were my friends dont even talk to me anymore.  I dont have anyone.  I drove all of them ( Read more... )

Jeff got into an accident.  His car is totalled, he had to get pulled out by his friends who were following him.  He went right into a tree.  Hearing the news was probably the scariest thing i've ever heard.  All i thought of was Mike Anzano.  Jeff refused to go to the hospital, he claims he is fine but i dont see how he can be...he wasnt wearing ( Read more... )

things at home have been more complicated and annoying than usual.  ive realized now that most of the time id rather be somewhere other than home.  i've learned that i only really enjoy being home when im the only one there, or if i have a friend with me.  normally home is where i feel most comfortable but i feel like im judged more at home than ( Read more... )

although last night didnt start off too great it ended amazing <3

i really havent been this happy in awhile, but im trying not to get my hopes up - a pretty big problem could come out of what happened last night...i really hope it just blows over

I never thought that new burned cds, hot chocolate and talking for hours in a driveway could make me so happy.  I like how things are going right now...<3

Pretty pleased with myself. Talked to derek the other day and figured everything out. Theres not gonna be a 2nd chance for me but whatever shit happens. Surpringly im fine about it - i think i just really needed to know for sure what he thought so i would be able to do what i wanted. If there was gonna be a 2nd chance for me i wasnt going to do ( Read more... )

I had the most confusing converstation ever with derek the other night.  Its still stuck in my head.  He asked if i missed us, and being the idiot that i am i admitted that i did.  Now i think he said that he missed it too but then he went into explaining that he trys to not see me or be around me because he thinks it will help or something like ( Read more... )