i feel like im killing my version of drop dead fred. cept its not a personification of my evil side, and my pills are purple not green
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i feel as though i really see you. Despite not knowing u for very long i feel a strong connection with you, and can relate to how u are feeling 99% of the time. I really wanna hang out with you more. I know you're prob not doing ok so if you wanna meet up sometime this wk msg me or call me? cuz id really luv to see you. *biggest of cuddles* and all my love Emilie
Missed you this weekend. Shall try tomorrow. You probably won't see this until after tomorrow. Leo is exhausted. I'm at Louise's! Again. But I have an actual real excuse this time. I had an actual real excuse on Friday night too. So I've really only been here twice just for the sake of being here. Although excuses are trying to excuse something so there must be something else involved... I'll get back to you on what it is.
Please tell me this all made sense, even if it didn't. I don't want to know when I sound like a loser.
nah it made sense. if you hang out with someone enough you kinda get what they mean even if it is nonsensical- like that word or even that sentence.. im sure it made sense to you... hehehe
i think that is all anybody ever wants is someone to see them and connect, its a shame its so rare. Then i guess there is also that other side of things and if someone does see you, do you want them to see you at all?
Its true, everyone craves that sort of thing and your right i would probably run the other way if someone really did see me for all that i am, but first id want to ask them a thing or too... I really meant that i would just like someone to see me as something more than, what they need/want me to be. I want to be more than to play some ideal or character role in another persons life, and vice versa. it just feels like we are all lieing to ourselves. its a matter of projection. like we want a whore so thats who we find, but if we come to a point where we want a 'special connection' and that same whore could play that role too. (does that make sense? i hope it does)do you think those sort of connections actually exist? or is it just a projection of whatever emotional level we are on at the time?
i like your subject. we only cause our sufferance ourselves, and i believe anything that is in existence can be as easily removed if the causating source is first defined, hence removing all primary sources of sufferance. that said, if we give into our desires its such a pleasant feeling and i cant help but feel that going through some pain to achieve that goal makes the deliverance so much sweeter.
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*biggest of cuddles* and all my love
Emilie
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Please tell me this all made sense, even if it didn't. I don't want to know when I sound like a loser.
Ciao honey!
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I really meant that i would just like someone to see me as something more than, what they need/want me to be. I want to be more than to play some ideal or character role in another persons life, and vice versa. it just feels like we are all lieing to ourselves. its a matter of projection. like we want a whore so thats who we find, but if we come to a point where we want a 'special connection' and that same whore could play that role too. (does that make sense? i hope it does)do you think those sort of connections actually exist? or is it just a projection of whatever emotional level we are on at the time?
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we only cause our sufferance ourselves, and i believe anything that is in existence can be as easily removed if the causating source is first defined, hence removing all primary sources of sufferance.
that said, if we give into our desires its such a pleasant feeling and i cant help but feel that going through some pain to achieve that goal makes the deliverance so much sweeter.
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are you talking through my mouth?
*finally, finally remembers to add you*
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