Its no wonder I am always dreaming about tornados because there isnt shit you can do about them, you can't really predict when they will come or where they will strike, all you know is that the weather is right for producing them. Thats how I would describe my life. Im trying really hard to be fair to Justin, which is hard because I really dont ( Read more... )

so its been a little over two weeks since justin and I broke up. all and all its been ok but i dont think we're doing a very good job at being broken up. i do miss him alot but i think its better for right now. being apart is helping me to remember why i love him though. without all the pressure I can see all the good things again. i still get to ( Read more... )

well it happened. we broke up. im kinda in the limbo where I have some grasp of what is going on, but im really just oblivious to days to come. i feel sick, and im probably going to vomit. i hope that we are doing the right thing. Because this much pain better be worth something. I dont think I have ever felt like more of a failure. I pray to not ( Read more... )

well today has been interesting. it started off quite well, i had a really good time to day hanging out with snoogs and ana. it was like old school fun time. we drove around, went to hobby lobby, played with the goo in the colonel's parking lot, made a collage etc....havent laughed that hard in a long time. that is what i miss about being friends ( Read more... )

im getting a promotion. which i dont know how i feel about. i mean its good stuff and all...but i feel like a jackass not using my esthetics license since it took me a year and 7 grand to get it. and i got a student loan notice today....great. just what i need. i want to take out a loan to pay off my credit cards. i dont think the bank would give ( Read more... )

hmm....happy 2006 everyone. christmas was good...got lots of stuff. including a knife set that was missing knives. justin spoiled me. teehehehe.ummm went to michigan....let me sum it up quickly ( Read more... )

bla. i am sad today. there is an ongoing feeling in my life...the harder I try to be happy and sane...the harder the world tries to bring me down. For instance... yesterday was awful. I finally broke down which pissed me off anymore, because Ive been really tough through all of my money issues and all the other bullshit, and then everything ( Read more... )

hello all. nothing exciting happening really. sitting here with justin, watching something about little richie. it is lame. christmas is a coming ( Read more... )

it is way too late to be doing this but ill make it quick. wait....i dont have anything to say.

I PASSED!