i want to be happy but im afraid of getting hurt.

so i havnt been on here in awhile as u can tell i still need to upload better pictures....but things have been good. i like this boy...but he lives kinda far from me but i dont care. uhh im getting new piercings :) and finally finishing my hair.

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im so confused bout everything. at the moment ( Read more... )

i hate when my friends make me tell them whats wrong or how im doing because i dont like telling my emotions. i hate making my friends feel sad or anything just because of the way im feeling. thats why i keep everything inside i dont tell ppl how i truely feel. i just want them happy but truely im starving to be happy myself...im one of those ppl ( Read more... )

i really like him...a lot...i havnt felt like this since alan...i kno i need to take it slow...i need to not get soo attached...but i fucked up again...i got attached already...i really want us to work out...but i dont wanna rush things...i respect that he wants to go slow cuz he just got outta a really bad relationship i respect that...and im ( Read more... )

shades of grey please fade away. Oh what if i sit in vein? hey i'll look away pretend im ok...please could it be true that i still love you? and my loves unworthy...I and I ran away...for i was afraid you'd be everything....

-just part of a song i love...def. has meaning.

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so u kno what ive deicided i wanna just get away from everything and everyone and be in europe and stay there....i need to stop listenin to my head and start following my heart and doing what is best for me not what i want emotionally...but what i need for a better life.

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so things with krystain didnt work out...and alan and i are actually gettin along and still have yet to hangout but we will...gah he has noooooo idea how much i truley love him...like i told him how much i loved him but i wish i could have said it in person instead of in text messages. i wish he could see how much my heart hurts without him. and ( Read more... )

ok so i found out today that one of my friend Krystian that is WAYYYYYYY uber hot likes me...and he said he wants to date me? so im hopin that we will get together cuz he seems like a really nice guy and i really am attracted to him....oh yea i talked to alan the other day and TOTALLY confessed how much i was still in love with him and how i still ( Read more... )

So basically the one man i was sure i was gonna marry and still believe i will. i found out has a gf at the moment...wow. seriously this is not good. i do believe Mark is who God wants to be with it will work out but it still hurts like fuck that hes with this girl. and if i might add she is very very unattractive ask anyone.The moment i laid eyes ( Read more... )