Second year of college and this time I'm going to get it right. The first year I mostly spent depressed and wallowing in self pity. No more. I want to be happy and I'm going to damn well do everything I can to be so. I'm not sure if this is the right path for me still, but until I do know I'm just gonna keep going ( Read more... )

The hardest thing ever is taking chances. Because you can only take so much pain. And you can only get hurt so many times before you create a bubble around yourself to avoid any more scars. And then you end up never really living at all. So we deal with pain. We take chances and we take risks, because either way we’re going to lose, and it’s going ( Read more... )

Yesterday, I found out that my mom is moving in with my aunt. Also, her husband is going to go stay with his parents now. I already knew my mom was going to marriage counselling, but I guess nothing is really coming of it. Gary is apparently going to start going with her too now ( Read more... )

I really feel like I've accomplished some things lately. Maybe not as much as I would like, but I've still got plenty of time for the other stuff. I suppose I am in a rush, but not so much that I can't appreciate the amount of time I have ( Read more... )

So no one in my family knows me at all and none of them trust me either. This is such a great feeling. So FUCKING great.

It's really weird how people strive for attention. I've noticed it a lot lately...

Currently, I've got about 2 more days until finals. Somehow, I've managed to scrape by this semester with 2 Bs and 1 C. I'm not complaining :D My finals are both on Wednesday and I go home Saturday ( Read more... )

I got new sleeping pills and Jeanine and I are committed to bike riding everyday. I'm feeling good about life right now. Hope it lasts :)

Most people would assume that my disbelief in god stems from a jaded sort of rebellion I may or may not have experienced in my childhood. This is only partially the case.

God was there for me when I was younger, I suppose. He scared the monsters away when I refused to go get my mommy. He listened to my problems when I was ignored. Outside of that, ( Read more... )

I'm actually pretty selfish and materialistic, but I can't seem to fault myself for it. What is life if we were not meant to enjoy all of it? I've learned relationships are really only disappointing. Hopefully someone will come along and prove to me otherwise. Until then, I think it's time to get serious about ME.