I'm weighing in Monday morning for the first time in a longggg while. I've been too much of a pussbag to get on the scale after all the weight i gained over the holidays. But i am back, maybe even more so than before. My jeans that i wore over break that fit SO UNCOMFORTABLEY TIGHT are now bagging and falling off of me. hooray. my skinny jeans are ( Read more... )

Well, today has been the laziest day that has ever exsisted. I was up till 4 or 5 talking on the phone with my boyyy and didnt wake up till 2 this afternoon. I havent had ANYTHING but water in the past 5 days and i didnt take adderall yesterday or today so as you can imagine i was feeling soooo extremely fatigued. it was insane. i went out to smoke ( Read more... )

Hellllo. I'm feeling better. I'm not eating, haven't been for a while, haven't counted the days either. My pants are baggy and I'm drinking 64 oz of water everyday... life's good. And my two best friends are coming up to my college this weekend, and we're going balls to the walls with the blunt smoking and booze drinking. haha, yeah, I'm a fuckup ( Read more... )

I just can't seem to pick myself up after falling. I can't remember ever feeling this lonely and hopeless.

Girls, sorry im so bad at updating, its pathetic. but i have been doing well! im starting another one of my fasts... 21 days, first 10 days water only. this is ridiculous and i need to start losing weight now. im going to cali for spring break and i simply cannot wear a bathing suit like this. simple as that. today is day 3. whoohoo. this is going ( Read more... )

i just ate 747 calories after 4 days of not eating. then i chased that with 6 laxatives, we can only pray i die.

ummm im so fucking fat. i cant stand this feeling. i hate hate hate hate hate hate HATE it. i am so uncomfortable. i just want to hide hide hide. fuck. this sucks. i need to stop being such a fucking fat lard, for real. i didnt eat at all yesterday, and i wont eat today... but i am consuming adderall like its candy. adderall, water, and cigarettes ( Read more... )

What is it about snow that is so depressing? Maybe its the fact that its white, pure, and clean and reflects that i am none of those things, and i will strive to be those things for as long as i live and never accomplish it ( Read more... )

hmmmmmm im really depressed right now. whats new right? well, uhhh its hard for me to type now cause im on codiene. so i guess thats kinda new, im a pill popper! woohoo! my life is fucking awesome! you're going places now, kristin. way to fucking go ( Read more... )

im freaking out.

i just ate a brownie and had some frozen yogurt.

i might have a panic attack

by the way i did get adderall... i have barely eaten the past 4 days. i didnt take it today because i have 15 pills to last me 30 days. shit. shit. shit. shit.