The weekend went ok I guess. I hate all the people around. I had a panic attack in front of them and I feel so stupid.
Yuck.
Im trying to write in here more but I just dont feel like it. I dunno why I guess. I'm tired and feel kinda crappy and I just don't feel like writing about anything.

I already don't like this weekend. I hoped it wasn't gonna be so bad but I'm freaking out. My aunts whole big family is here and they're all staying at the house and I think I'm gonna explode or something ( Read more... )

Sooo sleeepyyyy.
Babies are tiring.
I don't think I've slept in a month.
Anyone want to babysit for a little while?
ZZZzzzz

Lilly smiled!!!
I was changing her stinky diaper this morning and making silly faces at her and she smiled at me!! A real smile!!

I really want to get a new therapist. I hate the one I have now. I told my aunt before that I don't like her but she didn't really say anything. But I don't like her at all and I don't think she helps me. I don't think she's really that nice or supportive. Sometimes it seems like she doesnt' listen to me or doesn't care or believe me or something.I ( Read more... )

I'm so tired. My uncle was yelling at me yesterday because I got mad because they took Lilly to church and I didn't want them to. I didn't feel good yesterday because of the pills my doc has me on and so I stayed home.

I'm gonna try to post stuff here more. You're right Kait, it does make me feel kind of better when I talk about stuff. I'm gonna try and post other stuff to though. I don't want this blog to be all depressing ( Read more... )

I feel so angry today. I don't know why I guess. Maybe I do. I don't know. I'm just angry. Yuck, grrr why can't I ever be happy for more than two seconds???
This blog is so depressing, I'm sorry.
It's wierd now that people read this. Maybe I should try to make it happier or something. Maybe I shouldn't talk about all this stuff.

Lillian and I are doing good. She is now almost 4 weeks old. I don't know how much she weighs right now, but she is getting bigger! She had a tummy ache last night and that made her really fussy, but everything is better now. I haven't been getting very much sleep, I feel like a zombie. But I love her so much and dont know what I'd do without her ( Read more... )

I haven't posted in a while. I'm so busy and tired and not getting any sleep. Lilly is 2 1/2 weeks old now. She weighs 6 pounds now! She's getting big. She's doing really good. I wish she could sleep the whole night though. I'm really tired. I'm gonna be really happy when she sleeps the whole night ( Read more... )