Yup...still love life.  Honestly--people are incredible.  This year especially; everything just seems to be going well.  Granted, I am still failing AP Chem (hahaha) but I think I'll be okay.  Wow...it's just interesting to hear about how people view you.  And it's so wonderful to be able to hang out with people and just enjoy yourself so much even ( Read more... )

I LOVE MY FRIENDS AND I LOVE MY LIFE.

I honestly don't know if I can do this.  I'm eighteen years old--I'M A LITTLE GIRL.  God--wasn't it just yesterday that I was traversing the halls of middle school?  Where did the time go?  Why am I being given SO MUCH RESPONSIBILITY??!  This is the first time I have ever had so much control over the direction that my life will take.  And the funny ( Read more... )

I can't do this.  I'm going through so much right now and I have so much to deal with that I don't even know where to begin.  I know I write entries like this every six months or so, but I think it's different this time.  Scratch that--I know it's different.  This time around, I'm definitely dealing with trying to pass AP Chemistry and, oh yeah, ( Read more... )

Wow, there are definitely some things I feel guilty about.  There are some things I have done that I should not have.  Perhaps in the purely technical sense it was "okay" to do these things, but in the emotional sense it definitely was not.  So I'm sorry.  That was very disloyal of me.

You would love me so much.

This is fucking ridiculous.  I am eighteen years old.  WE are SENIORS in HIGH SCHOOL.  I don't think I should have to deal with someone's random mood swings and his random inability to act like a nice, normal human being towards me.  I feel like we're in middle school and this is completely absurd.  I do not put up with fucked-up behavior like this ( Read more... )

It's hard to just reintroduce someone into your life.

Everything makes sense now.  This is good.  I feel very calm.  I think everything is going to work out for the best.

ugh Lori STOP BEING A NUTCASE.