I'm so done with effing thinking about this.  I'll just let it rest until Monday.

Are we supposed to follow our hearts for this--or are we supposed to make an intelligent, logical decision?  I'm torn...I'm in love with one school but have found everything I've ever wanted in a college in another.  What am I supposed to do?  They all tell you that you're supposed to go with your gut, but I don't know if I'm supposed to follow my ( Read more... )

Oh, and my parents are being really emotional in general which definitely does not make this ANY easier.  My mom and I have blown up at each other at least three times over the past week.  At least.  And I have to say, it doesn't make it any easier hearing about how my dad especially likes that school or especially HATES this school.  It just doesn ( Read more... )

why wow is this process making me SO FUCKING EMOTIONAL

I'm so sick of this and I don't even know what I want anymore.

Oh, and you know what I love even more? I love when my mother likes to complain and opine about my various fuck-ups. I really do. I like it when she likes to rub the salt in the wound and, furthermore, ask me why I "don't care" that I fuck shit up all the time. Well guess what Mom? I DO FUCKING CARE. IT JUST DOESN'T HELP THAT YOU HAVE TO RUB ( Read more... )

Why am I so retarded? I hate when I fuck up.

-always go with your gut.

taintedlovvee (5:18:10 PM): I want to be like the bad upperclassgirl ( Read more... )

Omg.  My mom basically just 1.  acknowledged the idea that I could be having sex at this moment in my life, and 2.  implied that she might be okay with it.  !!!!  This is craziness.  I really thought that she didn't even realize teenage sex (at least for her daughter) was possible.  Wow.  So crazy.  Yay.