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" to be honest my priority is Lexy and I want to spend every second with her, and over the like...six months I have not really had fun hanging out with you, we have grown apart and I really want to focus on Lexy and getting somewhere in life, you have been a great friend but I want to move on. My priorities have shifted and I am in love with lexy ( Read more... ) -
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I can't stand how Tracy always complains about everything around the house. I know Alyssa doesn't do much...if anything at all...but she comes in all the time and just complains about anything and everything. About how there are dishes in the sink when I JUST did them thhe other night and anything in there is from them. And how there are no towels ( Read more... ) -
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So I've been snagging anti anxiety pills. I fee like I'm going crazy and thats the only way to calm down. I was all by myself yesterday and couldn't focus on anything or relax so i smoked and was high as a kite before I could finally just breathe. All this shit is killing me. Harley going to Virginia and South Carolina with our father and he keeps ( Read more... ) -
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So I applied for the assistant manager job at DSW. I have my second interview on Monday. I'm not getting my hopes up too much because I don't know how I really feel about it. I need a full time job so I can stop working all these bull shit split shifts like 3 times a day. It's killing me. Plus I will get benefits and vacations and bonus's and ( Read more... ) -
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So the more I think about it...the more I can't see my life past like 25. Is that bad? I never think of anything past then. It's as if there is nothing there...its all blank. Michael Jackson said he couldn't see himself living past the age of 50 and he barely made it past that............. -
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omg lj. I'm going to lunch with my sperm donor of a father my half sister amanda and harley today. I'm freakin the fuck out. I have been so completely numb about the whole thing up until now because it's actually happening today. omgomgomg wtf. I'm so scared that this is going to push me back through all the progress I made. I'm scared. I don't ( Read more... ) -
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wow I can't believe I'm turning 21 this Sunday. It feels so weird. I'm going to be busy those couple of days because Friday me lyss gram auntie D and hopefully Pip are all going to lunch at the chhesecake factory!! Thats where we took KP for bis birthday...then later that night is muh partayy! I'm excited to see all of my friends...even ones I ( Read more... ) -
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Moving from the bed to the couch and falling back asleep does not justify spending time with me. wtf Alyssa try getting up more than once a month to spend time with me in the morning...see what a difference that would do to my mood...youd be surprised. -
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omg with this fucking weather. I just had to go outside and fucking shovel all the god damn ice and I had to make sure my car could get out for work in the morning and what happens? I fucking slip on ice and my door slams shut on my finger. Of course I cry like a little baby because it hurt like a fucking bitch. Alyssa was nervous that it might be ( Read more... ) -
ugh. I just want to punch my mom in the face. like literally. go there...punch her...and leave. what.the.fuck. All she says is oh you never sent me a christmas card (which is still in its envelope addressed and ready to go lol) and whenever she calls she always just complains about everything. she never even asks how I'm doing anymore. so I stopped ( Read more... )