warning : self-pity and extreme violence aheadmatt & i are finished. i dont want sympathy, i just thought id inform everyone. i think im still in the angry stage. the stage where part of me wants to sit him down, make him look me straight in the eye and scream at him for hours. tell him every single thing i ever wanted to say, and every single ( Read more... )

( bored much? )

too much happened that i haven't filled people in on so ill just make a list i guess ( Read more... )

so i go to the mall today. matt is there. with jen. oh yeah. tyler is there too. it was RIDICULOUS.

but, 'stead of getting upset, i had quality mina-rake time and took a bunch of goofy pictures when i got home.

( its like marilyn monroe...in the 80s...and not pretty )

i wish i could say im over it and doing great but im not. but im not doing horrible. im getting through. it wasn't just matt, it was so much. it was the whole situation with my sister, school, drumline ( Read more... )

matt broke up with me on saturday. because he's in love with jennifer and because he thinks james likes me. i'm not sure how to feel, either way im not really feeling right now. im thoroughly numb. i had pretty much an emotional break down and tried to not deal with it all of saturday. sunday i saw alex harms(sp?) at wal mart and he told me that ( Read more... )

im not dead. and i have the best boyfriend in the world. and i have the greatest friends in the world.

and rake, you get your own paragraph, because you are an amazing person. i wish you could see it. thanks for being who you are.

anyone watch the presidential debate? if kerry wins, im moving to canda. kerry = a fucking idiot. i hate him.

yeeeeahhh so i forgot about this thing for a little while? when was the last time i updated. like 3 days before my birthday? sept. 12, yes, so i have the 13-18 to fill everyone in on....dont remember the 13th or 14th , but damn, my birthday was fun! yay for birthdays! matt got me 3 books, balloons and a trip to the park, i got 525 dollars, a new ( Read more... )

so, i dont anyones going to understand what im talking about, but i had a dream about this hair and im on the hunt ( Read more... )

WELL ive had a fun weekend.

friday i was sick for ALL of first block (band), i just sat there and puked and cried for about 2 hours. i was just loaded mentally and emotionally and it all came out physically. the game thursday night was REALLY fun though...i marched absolutely horribly. as always. i threw up ON the field. i have to get over this ( Read more... )