so after thinking for about two weeks i've decided to write out everything. you're probably going to think i'm going to write about how completely heartbroken i am so why should you waste your time reading this. well i'm not i will admit i am still completely heartbroken but i've realized live goes on with or without him. god didn't give me a life ( Read more... )

summer has been filled with sleepless nights and contemplative days. it's been long and i'm sad it's almost over. being home all summer has made me realize how much i hate orlando. i've made new friends here that are every bit amazing. i wish i could stay here and not go back to school. i want to go back to school but just not in orlando. i've ( Read more... )

i never knew that complete happiness was so hard to find.

until now.

maybe i was trying to live a dream.

that was not real.

I haven't written in this in a long while. Somedays I really wonder if I'm going crazy. But I know I'm not and all the things I think are right. I hate Orlando more and more everyday. I don't fit in over here. People over here are just different than back home. To find some one as friendly and caring is hard to come by. It's just such a different ( Read more... )

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I haven't wrote in this thing in like a month. Lots of stuff going on.

Let's see. I got a job at barnes & noble in the cafe. I really like it there. I get to make and serve coffee. I mean it's my dream job right now. hah

School has been school. Studying and such. I jhave a D in biology though so I'm really hoping I passed my last test. Other than ( Read more... )

I haven't been on here in awhile. I guess I've been occupied with other things.
College is seemingly amazing. I love Orlando. A lot. I'm like close to home yet far away which makes it nice. I do miss some things but not a lot. 
I have homework to do today that I really don't want to do. I should really get it done so I have time to do other things.
My ( Read more... )

So maybe I don't know. 
I'm tired of trying. 
It seems like everytime I do there is really know point to it.

Wtf.

I leave in like 6 days and the one thing I wanted to accomplished never happened.
But at least I tried all summer for it.
I guess some people aren't the way you want them to be.

It's a weird feeling knowing that someone has the same thoughts and emotions as you. 
Someone who you once intertwined your life with but know longer do. 
Someone who you know but at the same time you don't really know. 
Two people living the plain life. The life where happiness is often not found enough.

I had an ice coffee today at panera. : ]

Summer is coming to an end and I can honestly say that I'm not ready for that. I only have eleven more days of home. I won't be able to have the feeling of comfort. No more just walking into my sisters room and talking. No more home cooked meals and family dinners. No more of coming into my room. No more of my house. It will all be gone. Maybe it's ( Read more... )