I'm in Sthlm right now ( Read more... )

I just realized that ppl who I thought my friends never help me when I really need a help even it's easy things.
I'm dissapointed.
even they know my situation, they leave from me.
fuck you guys.

he called my mother's phone today because "MY(Sho's) credit card(high way auto payment card)" wasn't in the car and he went through the gate then he said He's humiliated by sho ( Read more... )

so fucking heavy body now.
I don't feel like doing anything rather I'm not able to.
that just sucks.
it's still some days left to see doc so I just need to be patient and take medicines.
do I really need to help the family even I'm in this situation?
oh shit, I hate everything.

my blood pressure went up to 140-90 today :S
feeling dizzy.

hm...my tonsils are getting wrong again after stop using meds.
it seems like this

just be patient as a deadman with medicine or feel okay with wrong tonsils.

but I don't wanna get a depression and strange heartbeating :S

wtf, I'm feeling okay right now.
I woke up then suddenly I felt good (well I still can't move so much but still strange)
maybe I drained meds effection after all.
I can't move constantly and hands shake little bit but still my brain works okay so I started reading Mörkrädd and studied swedish crazy.

this is my opinion.

HORMONE MEDS are horrible!

will anyone just let me to stay in Sweden?
I think I really need to escape from the stress.
just think nothing and be okay.
it's impossible in here.
if it's country side, it's much nicer.

arg, too much mood swing.
I have to stop using Mercazole until at the beginning of July since my heart beating is too fast and feel like a dead man after taking a medicine.
I thought it will be okay soon but at least I need to wait 2months more to be okay.

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I don't know where I should write down so I write in here ( Read more... )