im not gettin sleep. well i am, buts its not good sleep. and its no ones fault but my own. but i think its killing me slowly.

i finally got my paper done! an hour before its due.... yeeeee haw. these two bots from me are annoying, so im gonna go meet my baby outside!

i dont know if complicated stuff is spose to be more rewarding or not... but i hope it is. cuz this is pretty damn complicated. and other times its so easy its almost scary. i just dont know which is more and when. ugh... im confusing.

have u ever been so annoyed that u just wanna say "fuck it" and give up? yea. i hate that feeling. usually im against that feeling. but for some reason, i cant let the thought go away. maybe i should take my own advice.

i didnt even know it could be like this. how is it so different?

apparently im not allowed to have feelings. anytime i mention anything small, such as, "aww, i wish so and so would call me sometime so we could hang out in the future," i get blamed for being a bitch and starting shit between people. for the record, i never started anything. i was never mad. i was a lil hurt and wishing someone had time, but i ( Read more... )

i think ive posted this before, but its true. and i wont stop thinking it till you stop being crazy ( Read more... )

wooooow lotsa stuff to update ( Read more... )

i think i just need a robot friend.

and no emotions.

or thoughts.

its so nice out today kids! i wore lazy girl clothes to class and didnt even do my hair. it was great. and i didnt care and i felt pretty still. and then when i went tanning i just danced to the country music playing before i got in the bed. it was fun. i felt really free. have all day actually. i made the best scrambled eggs with cheese and taco ( Read more... )

. . . . . so what am i so afraid of?

haha.

thats not funny kids.

seriously. its kinda sad.

i didnt get any sleep last night. i tossed and turned and thunked. yes thunked. then i slept thru BCA. ok anime porn keeps popping up on my computer and im blaming the only boy i know that likes anime. or japanime. ur in trouble.