i guess i have a lot to write about. but not really. all this stuff keeps resurfacing. i mean, i just never dealt with it. and its like it really didnt ever happen, but then i know it did. watchin kill bill doesnt help. i kept thinking tonite, "where would my life be now?" but its not really worth it. the time, the thinking, the crying, not worth ( Read more... )

well i slept great last night. i always do on nights like that. i loved our little walk and just hanging out, and havein a "double-in-date" with bridg and paul. i just had a great time. ut i guess i overestimated it cuz im the only one that enjoyed it i guess ( Read more... )

i honestly dont care anymore ( Read more... )

hmm. i have no faith. no faith whatsoever. in anything actually.

thats all.

man i hope i dont have to work tonite. if i do itll be at 5:30. not much new going on guys. life is so weird. i dont understand how being so boring and lazy can be so much fun and perfect. or how two seemingly opposites can almost seem like the same at times. and how SOMEONE keeps stealing my thoughts! or maybe im stealing urs... i just dont know. ( Read more... )

uh oh. i think im addicted. to two things actually. one seems good right now and i dont see any signs of it spoiling. plus, it makes me very happy right now and thats all that matters. and its happy also, which is good. the other thing isnt so good. but it helps me. and once again i cant stop smiling. and i really am that big of a loser! hehe ( Read more... )

sun: 1:15-6:45 ( Read more... )

i dont know what im doing. i havnt felt this way in almost 5 years. i just lost it. i dont know why. i got so angry and sad and overwhelmed all at once that i just slmamed my head into the wall. i dont know why. i just did it. then i fell down like i knew i would and i cried. and i went to the bathroom and sat on the floor and leaned against the ( Read more... )

wow. i dont know. i just dont know. maybe later ill be able to sort it out.

:)

until then, im just gonna live off the high.

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