These days I feel like all I do is search for something that I've lost when really I've not lost anything.

lots of questions. why here? because of me? no, that's silly to think but out of all the places you had to pick here and now i'm not tied down and i've not got anything to do on a sunday. are you hoping i'll be there ( Read more... )

as expected, life went downhill again.

no dress.

no boy.

no fun.

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lately i've been feeling very, well, normal. it's unusual. i've got uni, i've got work, i've got my family, i've got someone to kiss ( Read more... )

you know that often used phrase 'well, it couldn't get any worse ( Read more... )

i turn twenty-one in two weeks, on the twenty-ninth. i've had a lot of time to think lately, and though it's sent me a bit mad at times i do think i've learnt some things. we all spend so much time worrying about what's wrong with our personas, our attitudes, our selves, and how they'll affect the people we want close to us. it's come to my ( Read more... )

the more and more i think about everything the less and less it makes sense.

i just don't ........ know anymore.

i lose faith in people on such a regular basis that the combination of medication and alcohol lead to an atrocious scene outside someone's house when i should have been at a friend's birthday party. i have never felt so sorry.