yesterday i had the most amazing day (minus carrying up a recliner up 3 stories, alone)
i realized how much.. certain people mean to me.
seeing jills face light up with the shirt i bought her.
and just being around jes, danielle, ashlye and amanda.. was amazing.
and im lame.
i miss being 17.
i want beach vacations and softball tournaments this

constant peeing..
kd lang kd lang
sleep slop monster dreams.

i think part of a qtip is lodged in my ear.

nyquil addictions
and sleep deprivations.

i wonder if things are repairable after trust has vacated something.
grabs ahold of me tightly.

strep throat = 2000 mg of augmentin 2x daily

not making money

AND TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY LESBIANS SMOKE POT SO MUCH
seriously.
2/3 (or more) of the lesbians i know smoke pot.

can any of you tell me why?

so much sleep is needed. studying isnt being done. THE SEMESSSSSSSSSSSTER IS OVER AND NOW I CAN FUCKING EAT SAND\

dead wrong!

i think today im finally going to let go.
and give her what she wants.

my emotions are getting more out of control as the hours pass. i want things to be simple again. but they won't be.
im on some kind of downward spiral. and it's lasted the past six months.
it's either time for me to move out.
or learn to fucking trust again.
because im eating myself up.
and taking it out on people.
fuck me.

tornado outbreak!

im like unhappy. so goodbye.

people are like just shady.

it's friday and im drinking. i recorded 6 songs. i recorded an album. it's amazing. but less than amazing.
it's like almost 2am. im sweating and it's fucking hot in florida.
garrett came over for a bit.. and earlier i ate pizza with jes and danielle. i never recall the days events but i am.
strange.