so a few days ago i started reading all my old entries.. i've decided i'm going to start posting... NOT for other people to know about my life.. but for ME to be able to look back on what has happened ( Read more... )

i am sooo dumb... i do this shit to myself all the damn time.. why do i fall for it over and over again.. i knew nothing would change and sure enough it hadn't..

what an asshole

Step 1 - exercise more ( Read more... )

so, ive been thinking a lot lately... and when i say lately i mean like the last 5 years or so. it seems like every time i get close to somebody (friend, boyfriend, relative, whatever) they always just push themselves away from me.. Almost like THEY dont have to hurt me, I'M the one deciding to just give up and move on. Why do people do this?? For ( Read more... )

i have nothing left of me.. i'm just a shell. all of a sudden my whole world unravels and i'm left to pick up whats left and carry on.... Easier said than done i must admit ( Read more... )

so, ive decided i'm not all pissed off and sad anymore ( Read more... )

guess what skeeeeeze, i win.. and it will always be me who wins.

thanks and have a nice life you repulsive human being.

to anyone who actually reads this, i will update the whole story later..
its good =]

i just dont understand it.... when will it COMPLETELY be over.... when will i not have to worry about it... i just want us to move on.

all i want right now is to be happy... like LOVING life....
and to have enough money to pay for the things i need and to pay people back...

thats all i want

it seems like no matter what i do i cant be happy. i try. i really do. i feel like im in one of those horrible movies where you yell at the character to smarten up and do things different.... im the character in the movie making bad decisions and not learning from them. i realize that the things i blow up about are small. but thats how i react to ( Read more... )