Sometimes I wonder about this day and age I've found myself living in... I use the internet constantly in order to plan for my future practically, but I also use it just as much for social purposes. The internet is a social device with a power that extends beyond just trivial gossip (which is rooted in the simple fact that any form of human ( Read more... )

Monday is the first day of the last semester I have as an undergrad... it's still hard for me to believe. When I think back to the way I felt last fall, it seems like a lifetime ago. Even the way I felt when I went to NYC last winter... so much has changed ( Read more... )

Sleeping on these thoughts can help. I think I indulge my feelings of guilt too much, and it's probably due to the stress of this transition- from my German classes into my last semester as an undergrad. I know that my dad and my sister both have expectations and wishes of me, but I must have faith that my happiness is what truly matters- if I ( Read more... )

My mind is distracted, I don't know if the glow of this screen or the sounds of the keyboard will focus it. So many little things have been changing so quickly. The future is approaching at a steady pace, and I'm beginning to see that what I want is so different from what others want of me ( Read more... )

Wow. I just looked over my past few entries- how much has changed in such an incredibly short period of time. I'm beginning to understand what was meant by "You'll come back changed" now- it's only been about three months and everything feels different to me... my mind was a mess before I left and now, so many things are becoming clear ( Read more... )

I had a very vivid dream last night that I gave birth to a son who I decided to raise as a single mother, with some help from my family. I think it has something to do with my feeling like I'm having to actually grow up, though I'm still tied to my family ( Read more... )

I feel tweaked out and unproductive. I need to be at the studio in two hours for a critique and I don't feel prepared ( Read more... )

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The days are flying by. I'm shocked at how quickly time has past... I'm just a few days away from leaving for not only Japan, but for extensive travels... and it's hard to say goodbye- the second significant goodbye this year ( Read more... )

There is the me of my plans, and then there is the me of reality, and the two are often distressingly different. On paper, my plans always sound so extravagant, but in reality, they are messy and slow and difficult. In my plans, I am always so effortlessly efficient, but in reality I am always disorganized and stressed ( Read more... )