Today I was in the back making coffee and I realized I forgot to bring my half and half AND my sugar cause I don't want to use the crap that's been sitting around forever at my work. I pulled the creamer down and it was the powder kind and I poured it all over my head so I'm standing there covered in creamer powder so I went in the bathroom and ( Read more... )

I have been avoiding my journal for a while because I feel like all I write is sad stuff but I don't care. Nobody reads anything I write anywhere anyway so it doesn't matter. I am so desperately lonely today. I don't want to go out even though I guess I have to force myself too. Yesterday I went to therapy with Colleen and she told me that it's ( Read more... )

I chose bouncy as my mood cause I feel like I'm high on c'caine but I'm not that. I asked Ryan if I could keep on my crappy shitty pop music that plays on repeat because it makes me feel 2% and I guess it's the repetition. I can count on that music being shitty and playing the same song over and over again just the same way people are shitty and ( Read more... )

All I do is wake up in the morning, get in the shower and wash my hair and cry. Then I go to work and try not to cry all day. Then I come home, eat my soup broth, stare out the window and cry. And my mouth bleeds all the time.

today just started out on a bad note. i woke up at 7:30am per usual, and fought my way through insane amounts of traffic on 695, and it ended up taking over an hour to get to school from my house. so i was already a little on edge from dealing with that crap as soon as i rolled out of bed. then, in acting class (which is almost over thank god ( Read more... )

sometimes i forget i even have my journal, until I just break down and think to myself I need to write down some stuff that pisses me off. i mean realistically, those are the main things that stick out in my mind, and I think its long overdue to vent about some crap ( Read more... )

Remember the good ol' days when all you did was TALK about college when actually the thought was the furthest thing from your mind??? well i do. I miss those days so much right now. fuck it, i yearn for those days. there is nothing i hate more right now than college and all the bullshit that comes with it like work, not knowing your major, more ( Read more... )

so fucking tired and about to go to bed but theres a few things i wanted to say. first off, i hate school and i cannot wait until ends forever. secondly, i finally got a cool ass job!! it's boring as shit and all i do is sit there and make keys at this kiosk inside the mall but i don't have to do anything besides talk to people for like 5 seconds ( Read more... )

i had such a kick ass weekend...until today that is. dont you just hate that? when the whole weekend is like various assortments of yaaay and then sunday you're all depressed because you know you have to wait like another 5 days to have fun again. on friday we got real rowdy drunk and then when we left kamil said "let's have a hotel party", and ( Read more... )

i just woke up and i had this crazy ass dream. i was in this city with some old dude and he was taking me to get my car fixed. in the city, i saw the party city where my boyfriend kamil used to work, i also had a really strange sense of deja vu because i remembered kamil telling me that there was an underwater themed movie theater in arbutus ( Read more... )