i did nothing today.

it was fucking great.

=o)

my nose is so bunged up and my eyes are streaming... yet once again i feel insanely happy. my mam bought me medicine in bed. i felt like a child. only this time a happy child.

do you know what happened today? my doctor said that it's time to reduce my medication, and possibly stop with it altogether. =oD

<3<3<3

im borrrrrrred and msn makes my computer crash...grrrr.

ugh, i was emptying out my bag today cos i was looking for something and i checked in the back pocket and amongst various bits of miscellaneous rubbish (rubbish rubbish) i found a random photo of johnny and i was like 'UGHHHH' go AWAY, and quickly added it to my stack of hidden photos ( Read more... )

ohhhh i am sooooooo pathetic!! i cannot get johnny out of my head it's reallllllly annoying. everytime i think im over him something changes it!! the other day when i was out and saw him he was sooo cute and looked so beautiful but he was talking to other girls and it just made me realllllly saaaaad. and another night i saw him and we had a really ( Read more... )

wow, look at me being all onlinish. reason: im off school because i am uber sick...having done all my homework and reading i have found myself with a wholllllllllle day of nothingness...*puts on elastica and pours another jd and coke*. yes my lovelies, half one and i can feel the alcohol in my blood stream. and you know what, despite the illness, i ( Read more... )

so those of you who know me know that it was the four year anniversary of my brothers death on monday. it still hurts but more a dull ache now. we went through the ritual where we gather a lot of people who hate one another in one place all connected by love for the same person who is sadly no longer with us. i guess its a beautiful thing really ( Read more... )

happy birthday beautiful enni. <3

dont read this post if you miss me.

i am totally out of touch and disassosiated in every way possible. i feel absolutely nothing ( Read more... )

i feel like time is being stolen from me, its falling through my fingers like sand in an hour glass. *heavy sigh*

you're not the only ones i've abandoned recently. i barely see my johnny at the moment, its so stressful!!!

these days everything seems black.

i miss you

everyone seems to be getting by ok, i feel ive missed out / am missing out on a lot, and i miss you guys like hell...=o( ive tried to read dj/lj whenever ive had the chance but it usually makes me feel like everyone's doing better with out me! you know, everything's a struggle and it saps so much mental energy keeping up this internet stuff. i ( Read more... )