I basically hit rock bottom, i went into the crisis center on the 24th. It was probably the worst experience of my life. I walk in they make me get into these paper scrubs things basically SCREAMING that im crazy. They sat me in a room for hours and hours to where i started shaking getting so angry i was going to punch a hole through the wall. Then ( Read more... )

Im so fucking sick and tired of being treated like a whore. I put myself into these situations but its always in the hope of something more. Every guy ive ever dated, talked to, have been friends with have all tried to have sex with me and im so tired of it. Do i have a fucking sign on me that says fuck me? Exs are always tryna talk to me to fuck ( Read more... )

im in that mood where you just want to scream. Im in a relationship i really dont want to be in and i dont know how to get out, or if its what i 100% want. all i know is that im not happy like how i should be when youre "in love". i feel like kissing him or having sex is a chore and it should never be that way. i love him as a person but im not in ( Read more... )

I feel like i should update this, Holidays were okay, evan i were together until christmas day but we're talking again. Still in school but realllllly getting tired of all the bitches and drama every fucking day. I had a job at things remembered but seasons over and so is my job. My aunt and cousin have been living here for about a week and they ( Read more... )

I recently started cosmetology school and thats been monday through friday 9 to 4 so by the time i get home i just lay around all night and smoke with my parents haha. Ive been with the same boy for 3 months and i loveee him =)

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So whats been going on in the past, forever ( Read more... )

im looking up AA meetings and im sick to my stomach, i cant believe i really let myself fall this far down...

id appreciate no hate mail of how shitty a person i am

I did a goth type photoshoot a few weeks ago with my friend amanda, it was really fun i think they turned out super cute =)
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so im crying right now for the first time in a while. Ani just called me and was bitchin about everything and talking about how important kujo is to her and how she cant lose him as a friend and she always talks about how kates her best friend and they hangout like everyday and all this other shit and i feel so fucking alone its ridiculous. the ( Read more... )

I got a new tattoo a few days ago. It was a random 230 in the morning tattoo at my friends shop. I decided on getting my Buddha Ive been wanting on my foot. The pain sucked sooo bad it was kind of ridiculous, and it was also my first time being tattooed by a male. I cant really compare women vs men artists because different spots hurt worse, the ( Read more... )