i got into rutgers<3

i am leaving in 30 days to visit arizona with my best friend.
we are staying with her 19 year old brother/drug dealer.
shit's gonna get wileyyyyyyyyyyyy.

one of my closest friends had a manic episode, stole his parent's car, and no one knows where he is.
i need to stop doing drugs i'm dying. literally.

i had a party with 40 kids at my house.
my pool room is now the bat cave. i've never smoked so much weed in such a short amount of time.
2 grams in 1 hour.
and i did valium.
people were beligerent. it was awesome.

"the bottom line is i got fired because i smoke weed. i am fucking retarded now. and it's not from weed, it's from the fucking hard drugs i was doing everyday. without the proper medicine, i just fucking don't work. i can't do anything. and weed is the only thing that makes me feel better. it's the only fucking thing that makes me feel better ( Read more... )

an autistic little boy today told me i had the prettiest hair in the world.

i have, without a doubt, the slackest schedule of any senior this semester ( Read more... )

starving myself starting tomorrow.
i have a huge project to do that was due today.
there's no way my mom can find out about my abscence todayyyy =)
and if i don't get a cigarette within an hour i'm gonna tweak out.

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so my mother agrees that i have anxiety and depression, but thinks those are things you can work out yourself, and therefore refuses to let me see a therapist ( Read more... )