Sometimes it's just too much.

This is one of those times.

Alice came to a fork in the road. "Which road do I take?" she asked.
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."

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in 17 hours and 26 minutes i will be in florida.

holy shit.

There is a monster inside my head.

I think I always just assumed and took for granted the ideas that I'll make something of myself one day, or that everything will be okay. "One day" isn't going to happen without my currently nonexistent will.

What the fuck am I doing. I miss Kayt.

Alex and I are applying to the New York City Year program and planning on moving in together come August.

Have I lost my mind? Does it matter? I'm so happy.

...nothing feels okay.

Yeah, the river it spoke to me.
Told me I'm small.
And I swallowed it down.
If I make it at all
I'm gonna make you want me.

they are small; I am Not

I have
two feet
two tiny feet
bound in my mother’s womb.

I kicked my way out.

These feet
two feet
two delicate, dainty feet
carry me.

They carry me
across borders.
They carry me
beyond boundaries.
They carry me
past you.

I remove my bandages.
I am unwounded.

I have
two feet
two tiny feet
and they balance me with grace