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I feel a lot more detached than when I wrote that entry earlier. Ten minutes before 3:00 AM and I'm scattered. Multi-tasking is at it's prime right now and I'm so mixed that I feel sick to my stomach. I anticipate some throwing up in the next fifteen minutes. I've got 5 on it.

P.S.- My smoking is getting a little out of control. I had to bump up my brand to Marlboro Reds and I'm up to a little over two packs a day. I coughed up a lung today- she was happy to get some fresh air.

Today I am extremely bitter but at least my Literature class is amazing? This is only my second semester in college but so far I've enjoyed it(althoughI got the shaft as far as my Sociology teacher). My Film, Radio and TV class was apparently cancelled tonight so I decided to sit in the court yard and just write away in my notebook. I've had so ( Read more... )

My best friend had her prom on Saturday and I was her date. It was a last minute sort ot deal because her and her boyfriend broke up recently and she figured she'd have more fun with me anyways so we decided we were going. Dress shopping and everything was generally pretty rushed but we made the deadline. The day of we went and got our hair done ( Read more... )

-Show at Block of Orange ( Read more... )

Dad finally brought up leaving my mom this morning. She's only getting worse and I think it's getting scary for him. I told him part of me hated him for allowing me to be exposed to such a home life, intentionally. They had a house keeper who didn't speak any english but they managed because they speak some spanish. Mom screams at her and treats ( Read more... )

Last night and this morning I felt my eyes tearing up and some even starting to run down my cheek. I stopped myself and said outloud "No Alex, stop", "You need to stop right now", and I did. I don't have the time for a break down. No. No I don't.

I had class this afternoon and I enjoyed it more than usual. Towards the end of our lecture we began to discuss "Expectations vs. reality in relationships". I think a lot of people in young relationships (and when I say young I mean the actual relationship is young) aren't very educated on this specfic topic. We talked about "passionate love" and ( Read more... )

My sleeping habits are getting worse as the days roll on and they're very unusual. To be honest I'm starting to get a little concerned. I haven't had more than two hours of sleep in the past five days. It's not uncommon for me to skip a night of sleep every so often but I haven't stayed up this long without it being drug influenced. It's hard for ( Read more... )