Ok I can tell u right now this is going to be a long update. I just got home from a friends house and we were talking to her aunt and the conversation just made me realize a lot of things. First off we were talking and I don't know how it got brought up but she asked me if I thought I was pretty. I told her I didn't think I was on the outside. ( Read more... )

I was happy not being with somebody untill now. The last relationship I was in went to shit and all we did was fight. I want more then that. I want someone who wants me back. Is that so much to ask for? I didn't think so but no matter what I do it never seems to work. I just want to cuddle and have someone there that loves me. I know that most of ( Read more... )

Well it's been awhile since I wrote in here. Probably because I feel like there's nothing really important that happend to even write about. I just wish I could find happiness in life. I feel like nothing is going to make me happy. I don't talk to my friends about it because sometimes I feel like they don't really care to listen. They always seem ( Read more... )

A couple days ago was so funny.... After work I picked up theresa, then andrew, and then leslie. We all went to the coffee beanery. Leslie and I seen our neighbor there. Well as we were sitting there theresa brought something up to be honest it wasn't that funny but out of nowhere I bust out laughing and my french soda went all over andrew. It was ( Read more... )

As I got off work yesterday I had some things that were really bugging me let alone I cut my finger real deep at work..... but anyways ( Read more... )

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Today I was supposed to hang out with someone but they ended up ditching me for their bf. Oh fucking well if thats how its going to be then we shouldn't be friends anyways. It would have been nice for a call or something ( Read more... )

Wow it's been awhile and I feel like total shit...... I don't know what to do anymore. I act like I'm happy but deep down I'm not. I'm not happy at all it feels like my whole world is going down hill and that I have no one to talk to about it........ I miss him a lot and I know we will never be together.... It wouldn't be the same. I wish so much ( Read more... )

Today was fun....I hung out with bryan. We just hung out and we ended up going to lesa's. He made fun of me the whole time but whats new? Everyone does that....I feel like such a loser for what I did but oh well......

Well well well..... I am no longer waiting around. I'm not going to wait and then get my heart ripped out again. Why should I be with someone when they don't care about the way i feel in a situation. I shouldn't.... That's why I decided that I don't want to be with him anymore. Friends is ok but as for being with someone. It seems like every step ( Read more... )