i'm frustrated. really frustrated. i just cant seem to ever have my shit together no matter what. whats wrong with me? i have all this time but nothing ever seems to get done? why is it that all i wanna do all day every day is just sleep? i have no desire to see anyone. at all. sometimes i really wanna see derek. but then i dont. its not because i ( Read more... )

Wow ok I totally forgot I even had this damn thing. It's certainly been a while. Um I'm taking a break from my usual handwritten journal entries cuz I got really involved in that but right now I honestly have writer's block. weird. I usually don't have it for quite this long ( Read more... )

RESISTANCE LEVEL = 0

maybeee a 1 - if im lucky.

tonight is my last night at 22 methyl street.

there is this guy that walks around the block all day...every day. he is autistic. or there is definitely something wrong with him. he doesnt respond really when you say hello even though its the 18th time hes passed you in that one hour. but he is inspiring because despite the fact that hes severely ( Read more... )

moving on sunday. thank god this fucking move is almost over. moving really really sucks.

im going out tonight and having fun. a lot of fun. im going to have so much fun because i will not be with any of my friends =]

i cant wait to get out of this state

 WANT: (verb used with object ) to wish, need, crave, demand, or desire
REGRET: (noun) dissapointment to a painful sense of dissatisfaction or self-reproach, as over something lost or done

"dont do anything that you dont want to do" and "dont start anything that you cannot finish"
 "its not a matter about wanting its a matter about regretting. and ( Read more... )

in a month and a half i will be moving again. july 15th. last july 15th i moved also. thats a little strange dont you think? but yah i dont care if im living on the second floor of this dumpy apartment now. for some reason i a thrilled to be out of this house. i hate it. not to sound sappy but it really does have too many painful memories. ( Read more... )

its been about 5 months since my last entry. not because im lazy but because for once i had an actual diary ( Read more... )

half my head is curly and the other half is...something else haha ( Read more... )

its 11:30 or so at the moment ( Read more... )