Today is our anniversary. 2 years today WOAH! Gigi has been doing better in the last few days, which is a huge relief to me. My family has been researching bi-polar as of lately, another huge relief. If everyone could understand everything and communication could be open, I think it would all be much easier ( Read more... )

So happy to have spent the day with my best friend Clark. Clark is what I miss most about college, aside from Gigi and dancing. Tried to take Mia running today so I can prepare myself for the 1/2 marathon, but for whatever reason, high speed was scary to her today, so I walked my distance instead ( Read more... )

We have lost so much time. We waste it on bitterness, selfishness, anger and fear. We have but one life. Love is the greatest gift ever given and as humans we sweep it out with the trash every other tuesday because we are terrified of our own emotions and ability to place others first ( Read more... )

how can i explain to someone who doesn't believe in god that I know the one thing i am intended to do with my life is love you, not because religion obligates me to do so, not because my marriage vows insist it, but because i feel, and have always felt that it was my purpose. a purpose i literally felt like a weight over my body the first time you ( Read more... )

Wow. so it has literally been years since I typed in my journal. No idea why. I think I lost all interest in life for a period after the college tragedy. So, quick summary it is. Married Gigi, we have a beautiful 5 month old baby, Mia James McLain. Our life is super up and down right now. The long and the short of it, husband is bi-polar, ( Read more... )

my marathon is on the 5th of october and though i am excited about that and the fact that gigi and i are doing absolutely amazing my thoughts are consumed with one thought, the fact that my doctor recently diagnosed me with a thyroid problem, not the speedy one, but hypothyroid, which is a common factor in obesity. i swear to god when i say i will ( Read more... )

I have never been so frustrated with education in my life. I understand now why people drop out of college to work construction. there is something wonderful about stepping back from a project that you've thrown your whole body into. there is beauty in knowing that you're physically exausted from a good day's work. there is something concrete ( Read more... )

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I don't think I should ever read old, hurtful letters. I just read a really old, really frustrated email, a not nice one by any means, from last year and honestly, though all this progress has been made, it upset me and i don't know whether i want to go downstairs to kiss you and thank you for every difference between this year and last year, or ( Read more... )

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