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soo two days ago was my chubb's birthday!! we celebrated of courseee, got a limo, you know things of that sort. then firday had the regents, yuck, i think i failed defientlyyyy hahaha. after that sara and i went to megans, and we all went outside and tanned cuase i'm addicted hahaha and then chubb and sondra came! we tanned for a litlte while more ( Read more... )

i've been thinking lately, and i'm just afraid in general, that's my biggest problem. i'm afraid of vulernability, i'm afraid of not being in control of my own feelings, and i'm most afraid of letting go, and letting my guard down ..

i dont know, i didnt have a very good night, it could've been a lot better, i coudl've gone to a party but i didnt feel like it, i'm just not in a very good mood. maybe that's cause i'm menstrual, but hey what're you gonna do.

and it hurts to want everything

and nothing at the same time..

not tired.
you're on my mind .. you're always on my mind.
i'm hopeless ...
what can i say, i guess i love being let down ..
we were so right.

i painted my nails pink today. that's really what's on my mind right now haha. it'sa  pretty color of pink, when i get my nails done i'm going to bring that color with me.

Taking steps back through the words i should have said to you,
           they all got lost&you went away.
Well i feel sick,
           and you just don't care anymore.
I wish to be with you,
           minutes of me and you ..
And i can't feel this happening.


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Leaving all the fights and all
         Summer's getting colder
Drive all night to hold you tight
                  Back to California
Days went by ...
         We waited and I guess we're getting older ...
We couldn't win in the end .. you're gone.

so kiss me hard, cause this will be the last time that i let you. you will be back someday, and this awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips with be of service to keeping you away.