God i'm bored but I don't want to sleep.
I want to read
I was feeling really mellow and god forbid was using words like "Chill, Groovy" Weird.. It's like everytime i read a book i obsorb the people. Haha i seriously felt so calm so so mellow.
I even told lara i'd lend her 10$
I really felt in the mind set to talk to vic
but of course he's no where to ( Read more... )

 Grow up year ( Read more... )

all the things i used to be able to depend on ( Read more... )

 I'm not friends with beth anymore. I'm guessing it was my lack of commitment ( Read more... )

 I miss stacey.

I had another dream about Her  last night, I.. I thought they had stopped because I accepted that I like girls, but.. Now,.. I've had one. We had red hair again, but.. More orange, more dyed volcanio. 
GO AWAY.
So i spent awhile looking internet land for her. No google/myspace.
I dont know what to do next. It's killing me!
GO AWAY.
With dylan comming ( Read more... )

oh i have never felt so utterly BORED with my life ( Read more... )

I HAVE TO GET TO MELBOURNE.

MATT AND EVERYONE HAS BEEN SO GOOD IN MY LIFE.
I NEVER EVEN THOUGHT
i've been so bad to them
I NEED TO SEE THEM
SOON
THIS MONTH
NOW!
I NEEED TO!!!
God, i was such a little shit

 Hey journal ( Read more... )

i  cant retreat anywhere
every direction i try hurts

i wish i could just stop..
but i cant.