So again ive been sitting here thinking.
and realized there are a few people that i like.
not that i'd ever persue it, but yanno.
theres this one kid ive known for only like, a month.
this girl who ive been trying to get forever.
and another kid who i used to like, but let stupid shit get in the way.
and he used to like me.
but i fucked up those ( Read more... )

So once again its looking as if im going to be lonely for Valentines Day ( Read more... )

so yehh.
I give up. again.

cuz again, i got dicked over.
i cant believe he took advantage of me like that ( Read more... )

people seem to forget that i can write whatever i want here on my LJ ( Read more... )

so the past few days have been amazing. and i dont tihnk ive laughed so hard in a long time ( Read more... )

by the way, im trying to be mature about this.
which is why i tryed to calmly make somewhat of a solution with you.
id appreciate the same curtesy.
kthanx.

hah ( Read more... )

i been thinking.
i dont want to be your back-up girl.
im not a whore yanno.
im not one to sit around and be used.
i can do MUCH better.
i deserve much better.
i want things like they used to be.
back in the beginning of the summer.

maybe i dont know what i want, but i do know what i dont. now just to get the balls to make it known.
♥

okay so heres the story:

it wasnt meant to happen.
i didnt intend on falling for him.
im terrified of love.
hence actually being diagnosed with philophobia.

so its great to just let go of all that fear and give in on the opportunity for happiness just once.
and get hurt again.
that will make it so much easier to destruct those walls ive built ( Read more... )

STOP FUCKING WITH ME!!
either you keep fucking with me, or hes fucking with us both.
and it needs to fuckin stop.