I know what I know. And that's all I know.

As much as ive tried to change myself these past few years, ive failed over and over again. I cant help it, im me and i guess i always will be.

My heart still out weighs my brain, and im afraid ill never be genuinely happy for more then a few briefe moments at a time. I just want some closure. Some sort of ( Read more... )

I understand fully now, what it is that you mean to me ( Read more... )

it's like.. one of those blank states that you fall into as you talk yourself out of asking a question, because subconsciously you recognize that the resulting statement could come with great devastation.

so before your lips had time to move you've avoided the conversation entirely.

i want something to fill in these blank periods.

happy to have the internet back.
fucking assholes.

i need a new agenda.

target set.

half way to accomplishment.

must, stop drinking.

it's the alone time that i prefer now-a-days ( Read more... )

i hate when people share things with me just because they know something that they "didnt think they should keep from me ( Read more... )

i hate waiting on things that never happen.

But i guess i understand.

Shits gettin rouuuuuugh.

Honestly, this is the first time in my life that i can actually recognize that i DO give a fuck about myself. I love my body.

i fucking love me. Im reminded when i least expect it.

seems like i havent smoked in days, when bam! pull out that winter coat and find a nice g nugget just chillen from last christmas.

Like i said, ups and downs. fucking, up's and down's.

I havent been in a place so low in my life ( Read more... )

"the individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe, if you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself"