I hate that I've never been this unsure in my life...

I find that I want everyone to be as angry as I am at the people I am angry at. It stresses me out. I don't know how to fix that. Or my jealousy issues.

It has been a while since I updated. I have been ok in terms of OCD. about 2 weeks ago I was able to walk into my living room for the first time in over a year. I have not walked through the front door yet but I am not sure why because I have not been feeling the anxieties. In a way it is good to be free from the feelings but in a way I also felt ( Read more... )

I am afraid right now
I don't wanna let you down
And I am the one who can't be saved
The only thing I say
I am afraid right now
What if I can't get out?
What if I don't want to be saved?
This is me afraid

"Fighting for my Free Spirit..."

Something in me tells me I can't do this...
Something tells me it's not what I want

I don't know what I want
I don't know if I'm making this up

Why are these stupid little steps I've taken to a sort of "recovery" so big to everybody but me. I feel like nothing has happened. And I'm still just whatever.

I'm having trouble getting to sleep again, but once I am asleep, I literally could sleep all day, and I've wasted a lot of my days doing so ( Read more... )

Tonight I'll lie awake
Feeling empty
I can feel the pressure
It's getting closer now

**Holds breath...and crosses fingers**