Wishing all the best for you And now I will say goodbye

[_xonikkiox_]

well lets see. not only am i over due but i keep having false labor which fucking BITES. i want these things OUT OF ME. im sick of the pain. but the doctor said if they dont come soon he'll have to induce labor so yeah. i dont know but i've been put on bed rest till they come. boy their putting me through some hell. im so glad i get pain meds when

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[tj_h]

nik nik.... i'm sorry... i just... i find it really hard to open up to anyone at the moment. Please don't take it personally. I swear if i need you, i'll come to you. I promise. How's my babies? *smiles* juilet wants to see them.

I love ya nikki.... i'm sorry if i pull away *looksd own*

[_xonikkiox_]

tay its fine but closing yourself off to people isnt going to help you right now. you need support of others you need to talk to people you shouldnt let it all bottle up inside its not good for you babe. tay you wont come till anyone till your good and ready and you know that even if you do need me you wont. your babies are good other than deciding to take up perament lodgings in my uterus. well im sure they want to see her too. but their quite comfortable where they are right now and dont seem to want to come and see everyone who wants to see them. its fine. you just hurt my feelings when you do that. dont feel bad. just dont close yourself off from people it worries me.

[tj_h]

i'm sorry i hurt ur feelings. I'm really sorry. I just.... it's the only way i know how to deal with everything. I feel like if i let any of it out, i'll just lose it and go nuts and i'll never feel right again. It's like a water bomb... u put a little pin prick in it and it bursts. I just...... ugh.. i'm just trying to keep going.... for juilets sake.

[_xonikkiox_]

its alright. dont worry about my feelings they get hurt easier now that my hormones are all out of wack. thats not dealing with it tay. thats just putting it off till it all comes to the surface and its going to be 10x worse than letting it out on your own. but if you dont wanna talk about things fine. just dont let it bottle up beucase when that bottle explodes and it will its going to be terrble not only for you but for everyone around and worse for juilets. theres a difference between keeping going and closing yourself off. you wont got crazy if you let it out you might actually feel a tad bit better. you never know till you try.

[doinitwitrythem]

Nik Nik.DAMN you still aint done and had them babys yet?Lol I was starting to worry there that you had them and that's why you aint called or anything.Lol I remember when you use to call me every 10 mintues lol now my celly is completely quiet..either that or its dead.Hmm maybe like I should check? Lol.oopsie.Lol most the time I have it off though so it cant bother me from spending time with Natalie and our babe in her tum tum.Lol, she's precious pregnant.I just feel bad for impregnateing her and barfing coming with it you know?But im always there in the bathroom right along beside of her..holding her hair out of her face and rubbing her back,its the least I can do you know?So thanks on the congrats.Lol I want to meet my neice and nephew damn it.Yeah I hope when you have the twins it will make Tay a little happier you know, because right now he feels all he has is Juliet and he seems to think the worst...she aint leavin us though dude, not if I can help it.But damn it pop his babies out already lol.Them are stubborn little kids lol.

[_xonikkiox_]

them babies dont wanna be born. but imma be induced soon so yeah dont worry about that. haha. i thought you had enough stuff on your plate right now you dont need me calling you asll the time.haha. yeah most women are like that when their pregnant. well hunnie barfing comes with pregnancy sometimes. i didnt have it thank god. aww. your so sweeet. thats great. i know you wanna meet em everyone does. they just are happy in their mommys womb. lol i hope it'll help him a little but i dont think that'll even help. i dont know. im so worried about him. haha. they are. wow i hope shes okay too. maybe i'll call her soon or something. im sure she needs someone to talk too. so yeah. haha. well i love you too. i'll tell him that tho you need to be telling him that yourself. but whatevre. byyye <3

[doinitwitrythem]

haha well they need to come out already lol come out come out come out!!*stomps feet* lol. I want to meet my nephews or nephew and neice or whatever lol. I know but still I care you know?Your basically my sister in law and I take pride in you and you've had enough shit going on through this pregnancy.It will help, trust me it will.Take care Nikki, take care.