Let me just say, I love keley so very much, she had really healed my heart when I didn't think it to be possible. She was so innocent coming into our relationship and it probably apealed to me because us men always want what we can't have. She gave me the most amazing little boy as well. I can't be too certain that it's our chemistry as simmerd out ( Read more... )

Here I am,staring at this blank page before me watching as the line flashes waiting for me to write something clever..to say something that makes somebody laugh..that's what everyone always counted on me for..but i'm stuggling with it myself.Fighting my own demons ( Read more... )

Well its been a while since i've wrote in this thing.I guess I havent fathomed up enough strength to get myself to, or to regain my composure.Im really weak lately.I recently learnt of some news that all hit me like a tidal wave rushing in at once, busting down everything i've worked so hard for, busting down the walls that surrounded me and kept ( Read more... )

So...I went to kate's and seen the kids finally.Wow..I didnt know just how much I missed them until I seen their faces and held them.I love them so gosh damn much and its soo good to see their faces outside of my nightmares and the horrified looks they'd always have saying my name.They looked so peaceful and so happy,my youngest was so bashful but ( Read more... )

Well..im not sure if you all know it or not yet, but im no longer a single man, i've been spending a lot of time at kaleys house because we've become so close lately, we have reached a spirtual and mental and physical connection.The loneliness has been wiped from my life, and the evilness she's rid of it.An amazing woman she is, she clenses my soul ( Read more... )

Its been such a long time since my lazy, scrub ass has updated this thing.*chuckles ( Read more... )

Well...I officially look and feel like a young kurt cobain and feel like im not following very far in his footsteps.Im murdering my own heart.Dude..I feel so...emo-ish?..I guess *shrugs* but what do you expect from a guy that just lost his damn children and who's BEST friend and hero is in jail for the sins and crime you committed yourself?Yeah I ( Read more... )

It is a lonely and dreary day for everyone here in Tulsa ( Read more... )

well...my brother is true fuckin blood,my brother is the definition of a true best friend...taking the rapp for it all..but...he had nothing to prove...he didnt have to actually go through with it for me to believe him..I believed him just fine.This is all so unreal...I mean all i know is im here free and having a decent meal...and he's there, ( Read more... )

the unthinkable is happening ( Read more... )