..I don't....I dont know what to say?How do you sum up years of your life into a summery and be content with that?How do you sum up any proof of your children's existance into this entry and etch their existance and their memory into everyone else's mind, how do you keep their faces from fading in your mind?How do you keep the photo from not ( Read more... )

not like anyone cares right now...but my children and I are in the hospital.Kade...is in acoma.He was hypothermic and went into shock and is in acoma.And Choloe got her little tiny arm broken,and my youngest little girl..I dont know.They wont tell me anything and they wont let me get up out of this fucking god damn bed.Fuck!!!!Ill fucking rip these ( Read more... )

Well...here's the deal...Tay has been doing some fuckin AWESOME progress beyond belief..but I knew that it had to have all been ridin his ass and was only a matter of time before it would creep up on him.And now it has.But im totally willing to face it too.You know?Im willing to do whatever it takes to get him through this overcast and clear a path ( Read more... )

Man it was the SHIT ( Read more... )

So...yeah...that's right...my ass is kicked to the curb for the damn moment.Im at kate's right now,living here for the moment.What's to figure huh?Its not like I can really make this any fucking worse.Natalie's got her own speculations whether I like them or not.And its not like we can talk them out..because she cant even fucking look at me, ( Read more... )

Okay...not that ANYONE is a burden and not that im trying to make anyone feel sorry for even taking my attention for even a moment...because you guys know i've asked you to come to me and I PUT myself in these situations...but...I just dont know where my mind is.Tay was making a break through and then fell through...though i think he will be fine.. ( Read more... )

Well hello all my fellow brethrins.lol.J/k. Well...I thought that i'd go and see my children that I seemed to miss so much of.Choloe and Kaden are just...shit....I didnt know that the next time I seen my children they'd be half as tall as me.My little boy has sprouted and he looks so very much like me.He's got such laughter.So much laughter.He's a ( Read more... )

Whatever happened?To it all?You know what?Im begining to think that family really dont have any meaning.I'd sware im the only one trying to hold the remains of this family together.I fucking miss my mom.I know I sound like a great big baby right now but I really really really fucking miss her.It's times like these that I miss her grace, I miss how ( Read more... )

I just got back from the hospital!Please dont ask how im doing.Please dont even so much as fucking CARE how IM doing.Because at this point..I could really give a shit less ( Read more... )

I think my brother hates my guts right now.Im having a child and I should be happy about it...but at the same time...my neice is lying in a hospital bed, in acoma when she should be doing other things..I mean..she is just a baby.Damn it!Im doing what I can to help but I dont think that Tay believes me..I dont think he thinks I care.Just because I ( Read more... )