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doinitwitrythem

Where did I go wrong?

Jun 18, 2006 00:18

..I don't....I dont know what to say?How do you sum up years of your life into a summery and be content with that?How do you sum up any proof of your children's existance into this entry and etch their existance and their memory into everyone else's mind, how do you keep their faces from fading in your mind?How do you keep the photo from not ( Read more... )

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tj_h June 18 2006, 12:48:43 UTC

Zaccy. Please don't cry. Just please. I'm coming i'm coming ok. Big bro's on his way. It's ok, the sky isn't falling not today. I'll hold it up for you today. Just don't give up on me now. Dont' give up!

Breathe zaccy breathe. Everything will be ok, it has to be. Just breathe please zac don't leave me too.

doinitwitrythem June 19 2006, 06:21:06 UTC

Tay?What do I...what do I do?I cant breathe, I...I cant even catch my breath...I fill like I've forgotten to breathe right, I feel like I have to learn it all over again.Teach it to me all over again taytay...please.

How does a man goes from 4 kids down to just one in a matter of hours?How?God...I..how?I...how do I do this Taybear? God..please...help me.They all are gone..they aren't coming back Tay..it isnt just a dream,I woke up and woke up and woke up and it was still true..all of it...its all really happening *bawls and bawls and bawls his eyes swollen and bloodshot*. I was suppose to protect them.Maybe I should have taken her more seriously?Maybe I shouldnt have yelled at her and was too hard on her?

*rocks back and forth crying* tay...taytay...I NEEEEEEEEEEEEED YOUUUUU, I NEEEEED YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!*howels*

tj_h June 19 2006, 06:26:56 UTC

I'm Coming Zac! I'm On My Way! I'll teach you how to breathe again. I'll hold u and everything won't hurt as much ok? Everything'll not feel like the sky is falling. Cuz i'll be there.

Just hold on for me zaccy. Hold on.

doinitwitrythem June 19 2006, 06:39:01 UTC

I ..I need you big bubby..I need you.I need you like I needed mommy.

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natalieabryant June 18 2006, 17:32:29 UTC

Zac it's real. Baby they're gone. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I didnt do anything, that I wasnt there for her. I should have been. She was my best friend and I wasnt even there to talk her out of it and get her not to do it. Zac I'm so sorry. I dont know how it all got this bad and I cant even imagine the pain she was feeling being here. She isnt sufferinig anymore and she wont suffer ever again. She wont. She wanted it that way Zac. She didnt want to suffer. And she didnt want your kids to suffer or be hurt by Adam to get back at her or you. I know her and I know she wouldnt have done it for any other reason than to protect those babies and herself. They're gone but he will never have the satisfaction of hurting them. I know that doesnt bring them back or make it easier that they're gone but just know it wasnt malicious ( ... )

doinitwitrythem June 19 2006, 06:37:56 UTC

I...I just...how can this be real Natterz?How can this be?Please say it isnt so?Ill believe it if it escapes from your beautiful crimson lips...the lips that kiss back to life.Please, please say they will live and that this is all a misunderstanding?It was all a nigtmare?And we're back to where we are all friends, just like it was before?Just dont let this be real Natalie..i'll do anything, dont let this be real.Dont..dont do this..it wasn't your fault..you..you wernt there for her because I ruined that between the two of you..I made you loathe her..it was my fault..I did this..by god..I killed her along with your guys's friendship.How could I have been so stupid?How could I have felt so badly for myself to let this happen?I think I pushed her too far..its just like me not to take her desprit cry out for help seriously..to think everything was fine and dandy and that this too could be negotiated.But...but...she ...she didnt have to suffer...she....she didnt have to natalie..we all could have fixed it...made it go away..all...all of it ( ... )