Comments | doinitwitrythem: Over and out

doinitwitrythem

Over and out

May 08, 2006 19:35

So...yeah...that's right...my ass is kicked to the curb for the damn moment.Im at kate's right now,living here for the moment.What's to figure huh?Its not like I can really make this any fucking worse.Natalie's got her own speculations whether I like them or not.And its not like we can talk them out..because she cant even fucking look at me, ( Read more... )

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zacsdreamgirlkt May 9 2006, 04:44:35 UTC

I don't think Natalie wants to leave you for taylor Zac not even the slightest bit of me thinks that at all. You just have to understand she has that bond with taylor the way I have a bond like that with you. Taylor will always be her best friend he was her first love and her first babies daddy and whenever things are stressful hes her rock. Just like I am for you ya know. I know Natalie loves you and she wants to be with you so don't worry man. Take a break and relax its not good for the baby for either of you to be stressing out like this. You can stay at my place for as long as you like hell I enjoy having you here cause you babysit for free and the kids missed you. I love you man and ya gotta trust me when i say things are gonna be okay.

Kate

doinitwitrythem May 9 2006, 06:39:07 UTC

Thank you for that Katiebelle,thank you for that glimmer of hope!Even though we had our share of tough times Kate, you always could give me some hope too.For instance,our children and an eye opener as far as my job went.I wish I could take what you've said to heart and not have a worry in the world Kate...unfortunately, I think I might have too much common sense for my own good and im sure you'd agree there.I just wonder if there is something about me that just cant keep a womans attention for longer then a couple years.Because if I had been able to, i'd never lost you.I mean..not lost you, because fortunately I still have you as a wonderful friend and an even more wonderful mother to our children..but..well...you know what I mean.The thing is Kate...she...she wont accept any chance of me having a bond like that with you..she thinks of it as just as well as cheating.And gets angry,but im not able to confront her about her and Taylor and god forbid I be able to understand.=0( It just..it sucks.Im pulling my damn hair out.You really ( ... )

tj_h May 9 2006, 06:11:33 UTC

your so fucking stupid. SHe loves you. She told me herself. She loves you. And i didn't fucking do that shit with her. I can't even look at her stomach, ur seeing things zac. Your seeing wat u wanna see. I didn't fucking touch her like that..... i didn't hold her hand, she took mine i couldnt' look at her. Don't speculate cuz i didn't do anything like that. I WOULDN'T DO THAT TO YOU!!

By the way, u fucking got pissed at me when u found out maddy was mine. You went nuts but u got to see her grow, u got to say goodbye to her. Don't fucking play the big man, ur a fucking hypocrite

doinitwitrythem May 9 2006, 06:25:48 UTC

Taylor...she may love me...taylor...but that dont mean she is IN love with me or has to LIKE me?She loves me but I dont think she likes me.And you have to have both.You just do Taylor.I want to believe she loves me Taylor, but I think she says it out loud because she thinks its you she is trying to convince that she loves..but instead..its herself she is trying to convince..because she hopes if she says it out loud..it will make it more real and she'll feel something, she'll feel it click and that she really does love me.WHAT I WANT TO SEE?HOW DARE YOU TAYLOR!!!HOW DARE YOU say that I WANT to see you holding her hand...or you getting even anywhere NEAR her lips..even if it is her cheek..because she wont even LET me touch her Taylor.How could you say I WANT to see my marriage fail yet again, and lose my baby before I even get a chance to meet it and bond with it?I try, but she dont let me be envolved in this pregnancy ( ... )

tj_h May 9 2006, 07:00:01 UTC

FUCKING HELL ZAC!! you think i'd do that? god u have no idea how fucking hurtful that is. IF and that's a big if, she ever got back with me i wouldn't ALLOW her to do that to you. I wouldn't be able to live with myself pretending to be someone's father. I wouldn't want my kids to have that done to them and i wouldn't want ur kids to have that done to them either. You fucking pissed off at me and i'm fucking oding nothing. You have a problem with nat. GO TO FUCKING HER AND TALK ABOUT IT! I'M NOT WITH THIS ANYMORE. I'LL JUST DISAPPEAR AND U CAN HAVE ANYTHING YOU WANT CUZ I WONT' BE IN UR WAY. HAPPY NOW?!

doinitwitrythem May 10 2006, 04:34:25 UTC

Im NOT trying to hurt YOU okay..im NOT taking a stab at YOU...im not trying to underestimate you or degrade you..im not trying to make you look bad damn it.This isnt about you Taylor, this was never about you..it was never about taking what was YOURS..thats not how I looked at it.Should I have?Tay im sorry.IM NOT ASKING YOU TO GET OUT OF MY LIFE OR TO DISSAPEAR.you shouldnt have to taylor.Everything happens as it should.It will all happen as it should and im coming to terms with that.Nobody should go out of their way to stop it...especially you Taylor.If nat and I cant do it on our own, then..as much as it hurts me to say it...we just arent meant to be and we are undeserving of the marriage ( ... )

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_xonikkiox_ May 9 2006, 09:19:59 UTC

Zac...don't be mad at her for wanting to have some space i mean i can understand where shes coming from. maybe she just needs some alone time. i mean just think this gives you time to catch up with your kids before the new baby comes. i mean this isn't all bad atleast you get to spend time with your kids so thats a plus. maybe shes just not ready to talk about her problems with you. i mean she may have alot of things to say to you and she just doesnt know how to get it out. and just because she cries when your near her doesnt mean shes crying because your there. well zac... just because he kissed her check or held her hand doesnt mean he wants her i mean he does that to me too. i mean it might look like something but it's probably nothing. Zac if you can't trust her and tay alone together then thats a problem. i REALLY don't think you have anything to worry about from Tay..he's not going to hurt you like that zac... you gotta believe that. thats the last thing he wants to do. zac her heart is with you i mean yeah she still loves tay ( ... )

doinitwitrythem May 10 2006, 04:47:18 UTC

Why does she want some space though nikki?I mean usually its understandable when a woman wants her space because you just got in a HUGE fight and everything else and its for the best interest..but Nikki..we didnt get into a huge fight...this came out of nowhere..she didnt even ask me for space, she didnt even really talk to me.I had to hear it through the great vine.Nikki, she dont communicate with me anymore.Just gets angry, or cries...she tells tay i'd only make it worse.How is that natural?Damn it..I want to be there for my baby, even while its in her stomach..i want to help her because I did this to her.And im trying to take responsibility.What did I miss?Since when does someone strongly despise someone because they got you pregnant?I..I just dont understand.I know that taylor wouldnt do that to me, its not that I dont trust him..or that I dont trust her.I ...damn it..I dont know exactly how to explain it.Damn it!Its so frustrating.Grrr.I ..I love Kate?What...wait..what are you talking about?What makes you think im still in love ( ... )

_xonikkiox_ May 10 2006, 05:39:55 UTC

who knows why she wants some space... women are just liek that sometimes. women don't need a reason to need space. well zac just let her work out her issues. she might not want to be around you right now. maybe she feels guilty? who knows. but you shouldn't get all worried over this. i mean don't get yourself all worked up over it okay? it's not natural. but who knows whats going on in her head right now. i know you want to be there for your baby...and i think you should be there for him but you can't do that till she gets over whatever it is thats bothering her. she doesn't despise you. it is frustrating.. your right but life is. i'm not saying your in love with her Zac..im saying theres a part of you that still loves her and always will. i know you haven't done anything i didnt say you did ( ... )

doinitwitrythem May 11 2006, 06:49:19 UTC

Yeah..you aint kidding.Like me and Tay have both decided..woman are all sorts of complicated these days.Hahaha.But you know what?Im done stressing it nikki, its getting the best of me and I was just getting on tays ass about that crap, I mean looking at tay, I see what its done..and damn, I could only imagine I look like that too.Seriously, just slap my silly ass.Lol.That's it..me and Tay are going out and drinking and just getting cought up with old times and having fun getting shit faced and having fun doing it and being happy and not going to feel the least bit bad about it.It will just be the two of us so it wont get chaotic, we might get rambunxious though..I mean like rough housing and stuff, but boys will be boys.You know?FUCK i've been waiting for this forever.I need to kick back a few brew-ha's with my bro..he's the best at it..I mean..without being an alchohalic or anything lol he just knows how to hold his alchohal.Sorry man, i was just hoping nobody was implying anything because didnt want to set natalie off again.Lol ( ... )

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