Comments | _xonikkiox_: everythings all jumbled up.

_xonikkiox_

everythings all jumbled up.

Jun 03, 2006 05:01

well lets see...me and tay went to the park the other day. it was an awesome day. we took pictures and everything. then tay was tickling Micah and out of no where micah says "dada" and the look on tays face was priceless..i snapped a picture of it. he looked so happy..and amazed. it was nice. that was the best day i've had in awhile. tay was ( Read more... )

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tj_h June 4 2006, 06:52:07 UTC

hey nik nik ( ... )

_xonikkiox_ June 4 2006, 07:53:35 UTC

hey tay ( ... )

tj_h June 4 2006, 08:08:52 UTC

he can smile as much as he wants, Just don't want him near me. He hates me, and i don't wanan be near someone who hates me that much, that can think i'd do everything he THINKS and BELIEVES i've done. Nikki it hurts. He hates me so much for things that aren't even true. He's made it out like i'm some bastard that's vandictive and muniplative. But he's the one that's like that. He's the one that put u thru shit. He can't forgive me for stuff i haven't done, then i can't forgive him for things he HAS done. Whether or not he remembers them. He still picked up the bottle which led him to do those things. And i hate him for that, i hate that he can think he deserves more forgiveness then i do. He thinks i'm worth nothing and he's worth evreything. Since when does it come down to who's better? oh wait this is ike. I know u hate me saying this shit. But fuck it. It really hurts knowing he thinks so lowly of me. So i'm just gonna do EVERYTHING back to him that he's doing to me. It's only fair to treat him the way he treats me. I'm not fucking ( ... )

_xonikkiox_ June 4 2006, 08:27:48 UTC

tay i understand. i dont know what his problem is. or why he hates you so mcuh.. i mean why? you've done nothing to me. tay your a wonderful person and if he can't see that then he doesn't deserve to be in your life. your the one who should hate him because of everything he's done. he seems to think he's better than you even when you was at your worst..the problem is it wasn't YOUR choice to get there..you had a medical problem. ike knew what would happened if he picked up that bottle and starting drinking liek that again...he knew he'd get most likely get volient and do something terrible. that was his choice... that what gets me. your worth more than everything tay...i don't hate you for saying it. it just makes me REALLY sad that you 2 ended up like this. i think he hates you for what might happen. he thinks we're going to end up together and thats what hurts the most... ya no? i really wished he didn't hate you tay. you don't deserve this shit.

i know it does hon.

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ike__hanson June 4 2006, 15:10:18 UTC

Sounds like you guys had a great time the other day.. Like one big happy family. I cant believe how big they're getting already ( ... )

_xonikkiox_ June 5 2006, 08:56:52 UTC

yeah..it was the best day i have had in awhile. i can't believe how big they're getting either....it feels like yesterday i just had them and it's been almost a year. time has just flown by and they've gotten so big ( ... )

doinitwitrythem June 11 2006, 04:14:33 UTC

Nik...what up my man?Lol.J/k.Thought id maybe lighten the mood and everything is all ( ... )

_xonikkiox_ June 11 2006, 06:14:49 UTC

calling me a man sure isn't the way to lighten the mood.....its a good way to get busted in the mouth mister.

yeah...things are kind of sad and dreary..its like a big black cloud has formed over the house and its just pouring buckets of rain. well you and nat aren't the only ones that fight. lol we all do. i know me and him need to be happy but its just really hard right now. tay isn't really want to do anything...he just locks himself in his room and stays there all day..cept for when he comes out to see emery and micah...and even then he doesn't really talk much it really sucks :o( yeah they have been cranky...not only because of the mood in the house but just because tays been distant with them and stuff... and its really sad. no their not happy campers at all. *sigh* i can't seem to get anyone happy...or keep them happy.

i love my boys too. <3 haha. well if you wanna see them you could always come HERE. bring your kids and we can all have a big get together. well if you wanna spend time with them come and see us! i don't see ( ... )

doinitwitrythem June 11 2006, 06:33:36 UTC

Right now..I think every chic there is wants to beat the shit out of me.Well..besides kate.And thats just a fuckin ackward situation right there.look..im sorry...apparently my actions and my words are unacceptable these days ( ... )

_xonikkiox_ June 11 2006, 10:12:46 UTC

well i can think of one other person other than me...and i wouldn't hit you..i'd just scold you. and give you a time out. yeah..that kate situation is weird shit. look i know you was just kidding and so was i. you need to lighten up a bit hon ( ... )

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